It's not the same thing, but I know that I've been bamboozled a few times by transvestites or CD's making statements that make me blink in disbelief. They are so far distant from myself. For many years I could NOT believe that some guys dressed as women, particularly maids, without wanting or needing sexual release. They HAD to be kidding, I thought. (Have had enough people saying this to finally believe it - though I still have a helluva time taking it in).
Now? I consider Carrie a great friend - and we've corresponded much longer than this blog has been in existence. But to say you were grown up before you ever wanted to dress? (And I know for a fact that he had women around him). WHUT?
I had my first erection around the time when I was six. Didn't know what it was - but kinda liked it. Called it my 'submarine' (Don't ask me why.) Discovered that I enjoyed fantasizing about women having a war with men - and that I was taken prisoner and made to do feminine things - washing up, ironing, cooking, etc. I didn't have the slightest chance to dress because from the ages of six to ten, I was on a very poor farm, with one woman. Didn't masturbate. Just enjoyed the hardon.
At the age of ten though - I went to live with my stepmother. I found that dressing in her clothes was an extension of the fantasies I'd enjoyed. Did it every chance I got. LOVED high heels.
Then after six months with her, I went to another house where I lived for the next ten years with various aunts coming through. I dressed at every opportunity.
But in all honesty? I don't think I focused on maid servants until I saw the Movie. "The Servant" with Dirk Bogarde. At that point I got the strongest possible thrill out of the idea of a lowly servant actually taking over and lording it over me. (Naturally I differed from the movie - seeing a female servant. But the strongest person in the whole movie - was actually a woman). From that point on I was hooked.
I knew diddly squat about gender problems, but gradually came to the conclusion that I was a transvestite. Even then, I kept finding that I wasn't quite the same. Believe me, I was pretty damned old before it finally dawned on me that I was submissive - but to females only
So? I agree with just about everything that Carrie said - except for our age difference. Just goes to show, that it is REALLY hard to generalize.
But that's me off my soapbox for the day. Here's another short story. Hope that you enjoy it.