That competition of Belinda's?
Years ago, I thought a transvestite was a transvestite, was a transvestite. A Popeye "I yam whatI yam" sort of thing. But now I'm amazed by the diversity of sissies like us, who like to dress up in girl clothes.
Don't laugh - but I'm not even sure now if I AM a transvestite. (Or WAS). I wanted to be humiliated - by a woman, Period. Humiliation was being FORCED to dress up - and I derived a great deal of sexual enjoyment from the thought of the humiliation involved. My serial started yesterday does have a rare male appearing - but mostly, I wanted to be put down by a female, in front of other females. Males played little part in my fantasies.
To attend a party like Belinda's voluntarily? Out of the bloody question. But to be MADE? Oh grief! The humiliaton would have been wonderful!
Some years ago, I was introduced to the concept that males who enjoyed dressing fell into two main categories - Transvestites and Cross dressers. I thought this total bullshit - and said so. At the same time, I met (through my writing) some exceptionally nice males who just felt comfortable in maid uniforms and doing housewifely chores - WITHOUT sexual release? Let's face it - not something I even considered - I dressed and imagined fantasies and masturbated. These guys were just kidding themselves, hiding from their true natures.
But later on, after my children had grown up and moved away? I wore panties at all times. Nightdresses as well, Sometimes even camisoles. Never jacked off - just felt comfortable in women's lingerie. So, had I become a cross dresser? Later, when Prostate Cancer caused me to take special injections. I lost the desire altogther, (I had worked voluntarily with 2nd grade children for about fourteen years - and the thought of being 'caught' now - without any enjoyment - made me stop completely. I'm well aware that to the 'straight' people that transvestism is considered wildly perverted - and aware of the horrible thought that might affect the teachers I'd worked with - so saw no sense in continuing).
Which leads me to another point. What does one DO with lingerie that has been worn - and jacked off in? My high heels were easy. Just dumped them off in a Goodwill bin. But lingerie? It's clean of course? But the thought of giving this stuff to some poor woman doesn't thrill me at all. Have a full drawer of the bloody stuff.
Which leads me to another point. I'm delighted with this blog. I'm attempting to create a meeting place for men who like to dress up, but coming up with other viewpoints? God bless Belinda, Tammie, and Monica. I need all of the help I can get. That idea of mine with putting on a serial? Bloody ego-deflating is all I can say - though I intend to finish the story up. (I mean - I'm no Vicky Tern - but three or four out of 400? Good grief!)
So? I have another idea. Don't know if this appeals to anyone - but I have two nice dresses - well, a caftan and a dress. The caftan is brand new - my wife bought it for me just before I decided to drop women's clothes. The dress I bought from a transvestite store of used dresses. I put it on once - too small. Never messed it up in any way. If I get any interest shown in my idea? I'll post photos of them on this blog.
My idea? Have two competitions with one prize given for the winner of each. I thought of one competition for short (one page max) TV or Cross Dressing stories or articles that I'd publish here on the blog - then award the prize based on reader polls. The other? I have no idea, but thoughts would be welcomed.
But I DO have to have some interest shown by clicking the poll at the bottom of this post. Upo to now, I feel that I'm batting a 1000 in lousy ideas. Any help would be welcomed.