Despite the fact that we've jumped ahead in the narrative, I don't believe that readers should have any difficulty following what's going on. I didn't when I first read this chapter and the ones after.
I still feel that it's far from ideal to be posting an incomplete story, but I haven't heard from Bambi in three quarters of a year and he's not responded to any of my emails, so I don't see a lot of alternatives. Though the circumstances suck, in a way, I'm excited to be sharing these chapters with you. They were what initially convinced me that Bambi was absolutely the perfect person to entrust with finishing the story that Bea had begun years ago.
Charles, age 20, a broke American tourist travelling across Europe, is sitting alone in a Swiss sidewalk cafe when he is invited to share a table with three sisters, Martina, Ingrid and Brigitt. Christina, the elegant, rich and beautiful mother of the three young ladies, stops by and is introduced to Charles. Having nowhere to stay for the night, the girls offer to put him up at their place and Christina invites him to her birthday party the following day.
During Christina's party, Cheryl suffers several indignities at the hands of of Christina's friends, most notably the vicious Margot Rosenberg. Margot's 18 year old nephew Daniel is another reluctant party attendee. His aunt is in the process of turning him into her sissy niece.
The next morning, Cheryl meets Christina's employee Esther Rosen (aka Madame Directrice), who browbeats him- or rather, her- into signing a contract with Christina, making Cheryl's position in the household official. Over the following couple of weeks, Cheryl learns how to act as a proper sissy maid and endures numerous humiliations, including being instructed to act as a flirtatious "coquette" for the benefit of Margot and becoming Christina's girl in the bedroom.
Cheryl and Daniel- now called Danielle- are taken on an excursion to Freistaat, a secret and exclusive district for those who wish to practice alternative lifestyles without interference from the outside world. Their first stop is a salon where Cheryl learns that Christina has agreed to loan her to the dreaded Margot for a week in exchange for Danielle. Afterward, while shopping at a boutique, Cheryl is befriended by sympathetic shop girl Michaela. Michaela is somewhat dubious of Cheryl's claims that she was forced into her current circumstances, but nonetheless presents her with her phone number to call in case of emergency.
Cheryl spends a harrowing seven days with Margot and is pushed to the breaking point and beyond by her cruelly inventive mind games and kinky tortures. At the end of the week, she is relieved to be returned to Christina, her kinder and saner mistress (at least compared to Miss Rosenberg). Her relief is short-lived, however. Cheryl's worst fears are confirmed when Martina confides to her that it has been arranged that Christina will marry Danielle (though Danielle is unaware of this), at which point Cheryl will become the permanent property of Margot.
Chapter 31: No
good deed goes unpunished. Cheryl discovers no sissy can escape the inevitable.
After I had changed out of my working
uniform and into my afternoon outfit, I went up to see Madame Directrice. Now
that Mistress Brigitt was out, she was responsible for my corset training, but
the turmoil left in Daniel's flight caused her to spend most of her time
working in her study. I had to pick a corset myself and constrict it as much as
I could before presenting myself for Madame Directrice.
I tip-toed up the flight of stairs in my
black ankle boots with four inch heels. Now that for the time being I had to
dress myself, I was allowed to wear heels that had zippers since the corset and
tight skirt hardly allowed me to bend over far enough to fasten shoe-straps.
My black corset was clearly visible beneath
my white blouse, the red lace I thought matched nicely with the bordeaux
details on the hem and waist of my black skirt. I also wore a black choker with
a gaudy fake ruby and contrasting white gloves. A white apron and maid's cap
with reddish embroidery tied everything together
nicely.
I made a quick visit to the washroom to
double-check my outfit, making sure everything was in order. Since I had to do
my dressing by myself at the moment, I was granted a modicum of leniency, but
obvious mistakes would be punished. I reapplied my lipstick, which still looked
fine, but a sissy could never put on her lipstick often enough.
I let out a sigh as deep as my corset
allowed, straightened my posture and walked out towards Madame Directrice's
office in tiny mincing steps.
With another sigh, to gather any courage I
could find, I tapped the door.
“Yes?” Madame Directrice's voice came from
the room.
“It is maid Cheryl, Madame Directrice. May
I please come in?”
“Yes, yes. Do come in.”
I entered the room. It was quite large. One
wall was covered with bookshelves, each shelf filled with folders and books
with titles that were most likely German or French, while those English ones
were about legislation and business affairs. The other was mostly empty, except
for two filing cabinets and a small table with some plants on it, as well as a
silver tray with crystal glasses and a bottle of water.
Madame Directrice sat with her back towards
the broad window, which looked out into the garden. The afternoon sun was
visible in one corner, but the partially lowered yellow shades diminished the
bright light into a pleasant golden shine. She was sitting behind a large oak
desk, perhaps decades or more old. It was mostly empty, with two folders at one
side, a big mug of coffee at the other, and a classic style pen tray and some
statuette in the middle. Most room however, was taken up by the laptop computer
Madame Directrice was working on.
“Stand in front of the desk, Cheryl. Hands
folded,” she said without even looking up.
There were two chairs in front of the desk,
but it was quite clear I shouldn't even dare suggesting using one of those. I
took my place demurely one metre in front of the desk, bobbed a proper curtsey
and stood straight, hands daintily folded, as instructed.
She continued working on her laptop. Only
then did I notice that she was smoking a cigarette. I didn't even know she
smoked. With her right hand she held a long slender cigarette holder in which a
filter cigarette was burning. It lit up as she pulled on the holder's long end
and blew out a whiff of smoke.
She glanced over her glasses towards me.
“Eyes down, sissy! No staring,” she snarled. I immediately looked at my toes,
starting to become unsettled.
Madame Directrice has always been strict,
harsh even, but her composure was always very professional. Like it was the
most normal thing in the world to force a young man into female clothes and
then spank him if he didn't measure up. But she seemed rather... agitated.
Angry even.
“Shoulders straight! No slouching, stupid
girl!” She snapped again.
She put her cigarette down in a small
ashtray, and took off her glasses, rubbing the bridge of her nose. She looked
up again, her eyes had softened a bit.
“I'm sorry Cheryl. The recent... events...
have caused a couple of snags. And I have to smooth things out. You know it has
been three years since I last had a cigarette?”
I was not sure how to respond, but
fortunately she sighed. “So what is it, girl?”
“I'm sorry to disturb you, Madame
Directrice, but I'm here for my corset tightening and appearance inspection.”
“Ah yes. Let me have a look.” She stood up
from her leather bound chair and circled around her desk. I saw her holding a
wicked crop as she approached me from the side.
“I said: Eyes! Down! Sissy! I'm really not
in the mood for repeating myself.”
She disappeared out of my field of view as
I carefully studied the tips of my boots. I felt her crop as she prodded at my
outfit. A shiver ran down my spine as she used the crop to lift my chin up.
“Look at me...” She grabbed by chin and
turned from side to side as she inspected my make-up.
“Hmmm, not bad. Not great mind you, but
acceptable. Your corset needs to be a lot tighter though. Bend over, hands on
the desk.”
I was very relieved I passed inspection,
but dreaded the inevitable constriction of the corset, so I was hardly happy. I
put my arms on the desk as she pulled my blouse up.
“Open your mouth, Cheryl” she said
suddenly.
“Madame Directrice?” I asked confused.
I felt the sharp sting before I heard the
snap of the crop “Gah!” I yelped. She had whipped me on my left ass cheek. She
yanked my earlobe. It didn't really hurt but I squealed out of dismay anyway.
“If you know what is good for you, you will
not make me repeat myself again, you stupid sissy. Do as I say,” She snapped in my ear.
I did as she demanded, and she let go of my
ear. She held the crop in front of me, let me have a good look, then held the
stem of the crop in my mouth.
“Now, close it.”
I closed my mouth and took hold of the
crop. The stem was hard, rigid, but it was covered in leather and I tasted the
sharp tang of the material.
“Good, now hold it there girly-girl.” She
said as she took hold of my corset's laces.
I felt a sharp jerk as Madame Directrice
yanked at the lacing. I immediately felt the pressure increase, but I knew
Madame had merely increased her handhold on the laces.
I gasped at the second pull as air was
pushed out of me. I actually squealed at the third pull as I was squeezed in
two.
“Hush now, Cheryl. Be a big girl now,” she
said as she pulled again, not as hard, but longer, holding on to the
laces.
I would have cried if I had any air left.
Black spots seemed to form at the edge of my vision. Just when I thought I'd
faint she relaxed the laces a bit. The pressure around my waist was
inconceivable, but at least I felt I could breathe again, albeit in shallow
puffs.
If felt her tie the laces not once, but
several times. Rarely, if Miss Brigitt had tied my corset, the laces would come
undone. I would immediately tie them, because there would be hell to pay if
anyone would notice, but not quite as tight obviously. No such luck now,
though. Madame Directrice was nothing if meticulous.
Her hands went down to my bottom. She
didn't bother lifting my skirt, but felt though the material my panty line, and
the outline of my butt plug.
I gasped as she gave it a hard push. “Good
enough, I suppose.”
She grabbed me at the back of my neck. “Up.
Back straight. Feet next to one another. Elbows at your side and hands outward.
Eyes front.”
She took hold of the crop's handle. “Open.”
She removed the crop as I opened my mouth,
then held the other end under my chin, wordlessly ordering me to close it
again.
From the corner of my eyes, I saw that she
leaned against the side of her desk, watching me. She didn't say a word, she
just looked at me. I was getting nervous. This should have been the end of the
inspection, where she would order me to leave. Something was on her mind, and
it involved me.
“Oh Cheryl, what are we going to do with
you?” She finally said.
“Madame Directrice?” I replied puzzled.
She just kept looking at me. Intensely.
Thinking. She picked up her cigarette took a puff while her eyes wandered to
the door. She bit her lower lip as she seemed to come to some internal decision.
She turned to me again.
“Tell me, sissy. What do you think that I
do around here?” She asked me enigmatically. She picked up her cigarette and
took a huff, gently blowing out a wisp of smoke.
“Madame Directrice?” My mouth opened and
closed, my head still not sure if I had heard the question right. My eyes
glanced at hers as I tried to make sense of it, but I saw cold impatient fire
in those eyes. I felt unsteady on my heels, the tight corset preventing me to
think. I just started babbling.
“You are... er... Mistress Christina... I
mean... You handle...” I took a deep breath, as much as my corset allowed. I
felt the phony ruby on my throat move as I swallowed hard. “You are Mistress
Christina's accountant. You handle her money and stuff...”
Madame Directrice chuckled. “Money and
stuff... Oh, you really are adorable,” she replied mockingly, but her face
showed no sign of amusement.
“Actually, I'm more of a...” she looked at
her cigarette as she was looking for the right word. “...Consultant. I have my
own firm in Bern.”
That certainly surprised me; I’d never
heard anything about that. I certainly never saw her do anything that didn't
involve Mistress Christina.
My surprise must have appeared on my face.
“What, did you think you have to call me 'Madame Directrice' because I am vain?
If my employees call me that out of respect, than so help me, a stupid little
sissy like you will do no less!” She snapped, her voice making me wince.
She blew another puff of smoke, now in my
direction, causing me to cough and further strain my torso. “And believe me, I
am very good at my job. But it is also stressful, so my employees now handle
most of my business. Christina is one of the few clients I handle personally
nowadays.”
My mind was going in circles. By now I was
somewhat accustomed to my corset, heels and other restricting clothing, but
just standing here in attention like some mannequin doll was very tiresome. And
I was getting more and more alarmed by Madame Directrice's demeanour.
“So yes, I do manage her 'money and stuff'.
But Christina's business affairs require other kinds of managing as well. I
handle that too. This includes this mess caused by Daniëlle's... departure.”
I winced again, heartbeat racing. I tried
so very hard not to think of it. Trying to convince everyone, including myself,
that I had nothing to do with Daniëlle fleeing the mansion. But I shivered as
scenes from that night filled my vision. I thought I needed to faint, but I
desperately tried to keep my composure. All the while, Madame Directrice was
watching me. Studying me.
“You know, I did some research, apparently
some remarkable thing happened at the police station that night. Want to know
what?”
My mouth felt dry, but I did want to know
what had happened after Daniëlle left. I hadn't heard anything from or about
her after I saw her running down the driveway. Madame Directrice didn't bother
waiting for my reply.
“Apparently, a young man with long hair
appeared at the reception.” She chuckled. “Stark naked! He had dry blood on his
face, and several small bruises on his chest and arms. Apparently, he claimed
while he was out with friends, he met a girl that promised to have sex with
him. When he and this girl and when in a back alley, some big guy attacked him
and then both stole everything he had. Including his clothes! Imagine that.”
“Of course, the nice police officers
recognized the boy had a rough night and perhaps needs a medic, so they give
him some old spare clothes and a cup of coffee before asking him who he is and
if they should call a doctor. This young man however, just asks to call
someone. Sure, said the nice policeman, do you want to call your friends, or
your parents perhaps? No, said the young man, he wanted to call a number on a
little piece of paper he had scrupulously been holding from the moment he
walked in. Of course, the police officers asked who that person was, but
remarkably the young man didn't know the name of this person. Only that she was
a friend.”
I closed my eyes in dismay. I think I even
gave a sigh, despite trying not to show it. Stupid, stupid Daniëlle. She had
forgotten Michaela's name!
“Anyway, the police officers started asking
questions. What was his name? Where did he live? What were his friend's names?
Who were his parents? What did the girl and thug that robbed him look like?”
She tapped her cigarette-holder dropping
some ash in the ash tray. She gave a smirk, as if the story was particularly
funny.
“The story he told was barely coherent. And
the police officers immediately understood that he was making it up on the
spot. However, one officer recognized some casually mentioned details and asked
if he was perhaps related to Miss Margot's family. Should they perhaps call
her?”
“The young man turned pale on the spot,
vehemently denying knowing her even though he apparently called her 'aunt
Margot' at one point! When one of them picked up the phone, the young man
started claiming he was a criminal that wanted to confess a heinous crime, but
apparently couldn't think of which one then and there. Anyway, the officers
allow him to call that friend, and after exchanging a few words, he hangs up
and falls silent. The police officers think this whole affair to be rather
curious, but let the young man rest in the waiting room until he calms down and
hopefully becomes more talkative. Some time later a young woman with red hair
appears, asking about a young man called 'Daniel'. Of course, the police
officers do not know that name, since that is not the name the young man had
given them. Nevertheless, when he overhears it he responds and the two have a
short talk, after which the young man wants to leave with the girl. And no, he
didn't want to press any charges or anything. And since there was no legal
ground to stop them, the bemused police officers wished him the best and let
him go.”
Madame Directrice took out the remained of
her cigarette from the holder, and crushed it in the ashtray, but I hardly
noticed. Daniëlle, Daniel now, had made it. He was free! I knew I shouldn't
have, but a smile formed on my face. My vision became blurry as tears started
to form. Madame Directrice fixed her gaze upon me once more.
“Quite a story, isn't it Cheryl? And
apparently, this was a slow night for them at the police station. I dare say
that the life of a police officer is filled with strange encounters. What is it
Cheryl, why are you weeping? Is it because your little friend Daniëlle left
without a goodbye kiss?”
I stammered a 'Yes, Madame Directrice' as
best I could. I had given up trying to maintain my composure. I just felt
relieved, happy even. I was just as imprisoned in feminine clothing as before I
entered this room, but somehow I felt like it was me that had managed to
escape.
“I understand. Both Mistress Christina and
Miss Margot were quite upset as well, as you surely have noticed. Alas, nothing
can be done about it now. But you are going to ruin your make-up, silly girl.”
She took out a handkerchief, and with a
empathic smile she gently dried my eyes, careful not to disturb my make-up.
“I think it's best if you get back to your
duties, Cheryl. It will help take your mind off Daniëlle.” With a smile she sat
walked around her desk and sat down on her chair. She gave me one last look
before turning her attention to her screen again. “Off you go, girl,” She said without
looking at me, with a gesture from her hands to reinforce her command.
I made a curtsy, as deep and respectful as
was proper. Though my whole body now ached, and my legs and spine shivered, I
put every possible effort in it, I was that elated. I daintily turned on my
heels, and minced for the door. Though as usual my skirt kept my steps very
short, I felt like I was taking a giant's stride. I reached for the door
handle.
“Oh Cheryl, before you leave. Would you do
something for me?”
I turned around, and bobbed respectfully.
She was still looking at the screen “Off course, Madame Directrice. How may I
be of service?”
“I've been looking at this computer for far
too long, and my eyes are getting tired and blurry. Can you tell me what you
see here?” She turned the screen around as I approached the desk.
“I'm not sure, Madame Directrice. It looks
like a movie of sorts? It is hard to see, it's very dark. I'm not sure, but I
thinks that's the...”
The words got stuck in my mouth. My tongue
turned dry as ash. My eyes were wide open. Madame Directrice was looking right
at me, smiling. But it was the smile of a predator ready to pounce on helpless
prey.
“The... what?” She said with mock
ignorance.
I tried to swallow, but I couldn't. The
room started to tilt, and I had to grab the back of one of the chairs for
support. I felt my hands shiver. I felt everything shiver. But I still saw the
screen. It seemed to fill my whole vision.
“It's the...”, my voice sounded like a
terrified squeak. “It is the front porch, Madame Directrice.”
“Is it now? How curious... Anything else?”
She held her crop again, twirling it around in her fingers. “And stand up
straight, girl. Hands outward. Mind your posture.”
I tried to describe what I saw, my voice
hoarse from dismay. I told Madame Directrice that I saw the front door open,
and two girls exit in their nightwear. They were agitated. Scared. There was no
audio, but I remembered every word of that frightful discussion. I saw the
younger girl take off her shoes, ready to run for it, while the taller girl,
me, peeked through the door to make sure the coast was clear. Some more
talking, and then the girls hugged. They looked at each other and shared a
passionate kiss.
“How sweet, no?” Madame Directrice said,
but didn't even bother looking at the screen. Her eyes were fixed on me. “Now
comes the best part.”
I saw the taller girl move her hand next to
the other girl's face. The younger sissy recoiled and brought her hand to her
face. Even on the grain of the film I saw a black spot form on her forehead.
Some more words were exchanged, and then the smaller girl ran towards the front
gate, while the taller girl quickly went inside. “Very resourceful, I'd say”
Madame Directrice mentioned with mild amusement.
The last thing I saw of Daniëlle was her
back as she ran while I closed the door. On the film I saw her throw away her
heels and wiggle though the bars of the front gate, then disappear into the
shadows.
Madame Directrice closed the screen of her
laptop. She took out another cigarette from a drawer in her desk and lit it.
“Naturally, when Daniel vanished that
night, it was up to me to figure out what had happened. I immediately assumed
that he finally had decided make a run for it. It was only a few days before
his birthday, so he only had to elude Miss Margot for a short while for him to
come of age. Then her guardianship would have ended and she would have no legal
grounds to deny Daniel his so-called fortune or force him into that 'marriage'
with Christina.”
She took a deep huff from her cigarette.
“However, Miss Margot and Mistress Christina both vehemently opposed this idea.
No way that little sissy would have the courage for something so bold, they
said. Especially when he hadn't looked like a boy for weeks. No one was going
to help a sissy like him. So I wasted the next few day following leads to
determine who Daniel would know as a sissy, but would still harbour him.”
She looked at me. “Oh sit down, Cheryl. I'm
not going to pick you up if you faint. Knees and ankles together, stupid girl!
Fainting may be quite ladylike, but slouching is not. Don't forget that again.”
She sighed as she spoke. “As I feared, I
found nothing. However, I had expected Daniel to contact the law firm from
which he thought he could claim his fortune. I was hoping that he might be
stupid enough to go there directly, so I posted a few agents there who would
pick him up if he showed his face.”
She noticed I was looking at her in shocked
surprise. She shrugged. “Consultancy takes many forms. Some are a bit more...
direct. Anyway, he was still subject to Margot's guardianship. They would
merely make sure a lonely runaway would be brought home safely.”
Ash broke of the cigarette as she tapped
the holder. “Again, no luck. So I started contacting the emergency services,
homeless shelters and the police. None had seen a girl or boy in girl clothes.
The police however, did mention a young man with a head wound who had been
robbed of everything he had. That is how I heard the story I just told you.
After exchanging some descriptions, I could confirm it was Daniel.” A smirk
showed her amusement with the situation.
“But it didn't add up. Daniel constantly
showed quite a lot of repugnance against his feminization, but his resistance
has always been very ineffectual. Yet here he was, following some sort of plan,
despite apparently his best efforts to screw it up. I suspected he had some
help from the inside. Perhaps even one of Miss Christina's daughters. They love
each other very much, but they all have their own agenda. They love ragging on
one another, and do not... how do you say? ...Pull their punches? And little
sissies easily get caught in the crossfire. I'm sure I do not have to remind
you of your little rendez-vous you had with Miss Brigitt?”
I shuddered at the shame and helplessness I
felt when Miss Brigitt made me 'Brigitt's girl', against my desperate pleas and
sobs.
“Be glad I interrupted her before she got
creative. She has a weird sense of humour. You may have ended up in Christina's
bed. Bound and gagged, while she...” She paused, then chuckled. “Actually, you
still may. Brigitt's not done with you yet. Not by a longshot. But I digress.”
She blew a wisp of smoke at the ceiling,
before continuing.
“I needed a bit more evidence before
confronting anyone. Fortunately, I happened to know of a camera that was
pointed at the mansion. The estate on the other side of the valley has many.
The owner claims it is to keep burglars out, but I think he is just paranoid.
Or perhaps a pervert. This camera is supposed to guard his estate's northern
fence, but isn't it curious how good the resolution is, even after I zoomed in
to the part that covered our front door?”
She looked me right in the eyes, with a
smile that was both amused as well as predatory. “Can you imagine how
flabbergasted I was to discover that Daniëlle's escape was facilitated by
another sissy that was even weaker and more subservient than her? Daniëlle may
have been a bit rebellious, but surely Cheryl was under complete control? I
certainly thought so. The girl barely knows how to deal with a broken
fingernail!”
I winced at the description. But to my
shame I had to admit it was an apt one. Madame Directrice continued.
“And yet here I see her give Daniëlle a cut
that might just impress the cops long enough for them to give her some
assistance instead of kicking her out laughing. What could possibly cause her
to do something like this?” She folded her hands in front of her, index fingers
on her lower lip. “What indeed?” She fell silent and just stared at me,
accusingly.
My nerves finally caved in. Tears filled my
face as I started to sob; I wanted to say something, anything. But I heard just
a whimper come out of my mouth.
“Well?” Madame Directrice said. Her voice
was as ice. No longer amused. Not even angry. Just... Cold.
Stammering, I heard words form in my mouth.
“She... She came to my room. Said she was scared... About how she was about to
come of age and Mistresses Margot and Christina must have planned something.
I... I told her not to worry, that they wanted to have a party and Mistress
would marry her and...”
“You told her about the marriage?!” Madame
Directrice blurted out. She closed her eyes and pinched the bridge of her nose.
“Oh, dear Lord. Stupid, stupid girl.”
“She had tears in her eyes. I... tried to
comfort her. Said Mistress would marry her and take care of her and buy her
pretty things... But she started crying and said that she didn't want to be
Christina's bride and then I got angry and said that it was a great honour to be
Mistress' bride.”
I started babbling, my voice shifting
between fear, sadness and anger. “She was about to be made Mistress' Frau! I
told her if that wasn't good enough for her then perhaps she should just leave
and go someplace else...”
Madame Directrice's head shot up, her eyes
bored into mine. “You said what? Why?”
This caught me by surprise. “Er... I... I
said... I mean... She... I wanted...” I tried to say something, anything, but
the words were as messed up in my head as on my tongue.
It didn't matter Madame Directrice’s eyes
suddenly widened. Then her face formed an all-knowing smirk.
“You were jealous,” she said. It wasn't a
question, just stating a fact.
It felt like forever as I let this
statement sink in, unable to respond. But it was true, even though my conscious
thoughts tried to deny it, I knew in my heart that I desperately wanted to
trade places with Daniëlle. I just nodded.
“You love Christina. And you want her to
love you. You wanted to be her bride,” Madame Directrice added.
“I am her bride!” I blurted out. “I came to
her room, dressed in white, and she called me her bride and her Frau and she
made me her girl and...” I fell silent. Then I just started to sob, then weep.
I do not know how long I was crying, but
next I knew, I felt a hand gently pat my head. Madame Directrice was leaning
against the desk in front of me, her right hand stroking my hair. I calmed down
a bit.
“Now I also understand why you didn't leave
with her. So, then what happened?” she asked.
I told Madame Directrice how Daniëlle said
there was no escape and that no-one would help a sissy-boy. Then about saying
she was still a boy underneath her clothes and should just lose them and say he
got robbed. I told about how I mentioned Michaela, who had helped me at the
boutique, after Daniëlle said he had nowhere to go. That she was nice and had
given me her phone number.
“Hmm, that would explain Miss Heiland's
suddenly taking leave for a short holiday. Continue Cheryl.”
I related to her the rest of our plan. How I
had given Daniëlle Michaela's number, and how we sneaked to the front door,
where we said goodbye and Daniëlle finally left. The plan didn't seem all that
great when we came up with it, but in retrospect it seemed downright
ridiculous.
“And the cut on the head? That was a nice
touch.”
I just shrugged. “...Look worse than they
are...”
“Yes, they do.” She looked at nothing in
particular, thinking. Perhaps she was reorganizing all the data in her head. At
one moment she seemed intent to ask me something, but apparently decided
against it. She got up and walked around the room.
She sighed. “Unfortunately, this little
stunt of yours came at a very inopportune moment. You have no idea the trouble
you have caused. And I don't just mean hurting Christina's feelings.”
That stung. I wanted so much for her to
appreciate me. And I had betrayed her. I looked at the tips of my boots. My
eyes started to tear up again. This time from remorse.
“You know that Mistress Christina and
Margot Rosenberg are good friends, yes? But in truth it is a lot more complex.
They are more like... how do you Americans say... 'frenemies'? They are also
rivals. Both in their private life as well as business. And neither is
reluctant to play it rough.”
I heard her walk over to the table at the
side of the room and poor herself a class of water.
“But they need each other as well.
Christina is involved in trade and industry, while the Miss Rosenberg deals
with banking and finances. Their empires are deeply intertwined.”
She took a sip. “And they do not separate business and pleasure. Some
of the best deals have been brokered thanks to their common love for sissies.
Remember that evening you were a coquette? Your performance resolved more
business issues than a dozen lawyers managed in six months.”
I winced. I knew that I was being used as
currency that night. But I didn't realize it was for actual currency, like a
common whore.
“On the other hand, deals have been
delayed, rejected and even outright cancelled thanks to sissies. Poor performance
of one could cause enough insult to reject good business out of spite.” She
chuckled. “The Swiss stock exchange goes up or down depending how good you look
mincing around in heels. But all that is nothing compared to the trouble caused
when one Mistress desires a sissy owned by the other.”
My mouth had started to open and didn't
close. I didn't know what confused me more, that idea that was some submissive
skirts and heels wearing keystone of the economy, that no-one ever mentioned
that before, or that Madame Directrice was entrusting me with that information
now. But it was clear that Daniëlle had an important role to play here.
Madame Directrice gulped down her water,
and was starting to pour another when she reconsidered. She opened the bottom
drawer of the filing cabinet and pulled out a bottle of brandy and two glasses,
before walking back to her seat behind the desk.
“Despite everything, the two business
empires have been growing closer and closer for years. Decades even. It should
not surprise you that there has been talk of a merger, one that would form a
massive economic conglomerate.” She told me as she poured brandy in one glass,
picked it up and held it before me.
Confused, reluctant, scared, I took hold of
the drink. Me getting anything alcoholic was reserved only for very special
occasions. And the one time I had brandy Mistress had served me part of it
using a horrible dildo.
Madame Directrice poured herself a glass
and leaned back in the chair, putting her feet on the desk. I was careful not
to look directly without permission, but I caught a glimpse of her legs,
sticking out from a formal, good quality business skirt. The black patent
leather of her boots came up all the way to her knees, her heels a rather
comfortable yet sexy two-and-a-half inches. The red soles indicated they were
very expensive. Pale skin was visible between her boots and skirt, but I
realized my attention was taken by those lovely boots. Confused and ashamed
that my interest was drawn by female attire instead of an actual female, I
looked at my undisturbed drink.
Madame Directrice took a sip from her own.
“The only way to make that work was for the two families to combine as well.
Both come from very old lines and the idea of a formal arranged marriage as a
business arrangement is still very much 'in their blood', so to speak.”
She glanced at me. “You can see the
problem, here. Christina has daughters, but they lack their Mutter's sense
of... tradition. None would ever agree to an arranged marriage. Sabotage it even.
And they were by then too old to be groomed for that role anyway. Margot has no
children at all. You can drink that, by the way.” I slowly took a tiny sip,
felt the liquid burn in my mouth.
“Margot did have a nephew though, and one
malleable enough to fulfil the requirements. But he is from a different branch
of the family. He may be first in line, but will inherit only her name, and
part of her wealth. Nothing more. Her majority in her business empire would be
defaulted. A poor candidate for a marriage proposal according to the old
customs. Margot knew Christina would never let her daughters marry him even if
they wanted to, it just would not be proper. But those old customs have
absolutely no objections with marrying of a young and good looking scion of one
family to the older head of another. A young stud or toy-boy wouldn't interest
Christina, but Margot knew exactly
what would.”
I listened in disbelief. Daniel was not
just some plaything, he was the center of some ...Conspiracy... That he didn't
even know existed! I took a trembling sip of my drink, but hardly tasted
anything. “Mistress wants Daniel only as a sissy...” I finally said, more to
myself than to Madame Directrice, but she nodded.
“She has been grooming him for almost three
years now.” She sighed. “And now everything has come undone.” She stared
absently in the distance.
“I thought... Daniëlle said...” I paused as
Madame Directrice glared at me, but she didn't admonish me for speaking out of
turn, so I continued. “Daniëlle said Mistress Margot was after his money...”
Madame Directrice chuckled. “You've seen
Margot's estate. Impressive, for sure. However, the mansion is ancient, its
interior old, and so is most of the furniture. It has the feeling of old, and
now lost, glories and grandeur, don't you think.”
“Yes, Madame Directrice.” I actually did
not agree with her. To me is was simply impressive.
“Let me tell you, it is a sham,” she said.
“She lives there because it is traditional. It has been her family's home for
generations and what was good enough for them is good enough for her. It is
also the perfect place to invite young and sleazy hedge-fund hotshots and make
them think she is some crazy lady that lives off Old Money that they can easily
rip-off.”
She let the brandy roll around in her
glass.
“She could flatten the entire Monte Rosa
and build a new mansion of equal size and still have money to spare from her
liquid assets alone. And then do not even count her investments. She doesn't
need anything Daniel has.”
“But why does Daniëlle...” I started, but
she cut me off.
“Because Daniel does not know how shrewd
she is,” she snapped at me. “Neither do
you, obviously. I heard about those 'games' she played with you when you were
at her place. You could never have won, but she delights in letting you come
within an inch of the finish line before she'd make you fail. Be glad you
screwed up long before that, otherwise you'd have received the full force of
her waiting trap.”
I felt my head spin. What she did was only
a part of what was in store for me?
She sighed. “There is no fortune waiting for Daniel, though to be fair Daniel will
receive more than he can even imagine from Margot herself after she passes
away. If he thought Margot did this to claim money that was supposed to be his,
it is because that's what she wants
him to think. As long as Daniel believes being turned into a sissy is a means
to deny him a fortune, he would never suspect that being turned into a
sissy-consort for Christina is the goal itself!”
Silently, I tried to make sense of it all
as I let the words sink in. “So... What happens now to Daniëlle... or Daniel,”
I finally asked
She shrugged. “Who knows? He finds a job,
buys a house, marries this Heiland girl, gets two-point-one children, lives
happily ever after and occasionally dresses up in skirts and heels just for old
times’ sake. Margot will secretly make sure he'll be taken care of. She really
loves the boy, you know? All she has left of her sister. It is just that being
part of that family means having certain obligations at birth. And Margot
considered it her duty to make sure Daniel fulfilled his.”
She gulped down the remainder of the
brandy.
“But otherwise he is no longer of any use.
Even if he came back begging to be turned into a sissy, it would not matter.
Him leaving undid years of his conditioning, which was tentative at best
anyhow. Moreover, Christina adored Daniëlle and was absolutely positive that
her feelings were reciprocal, albeit in a cutely reluctant fashion. She would
not mind her running away for a short while, spirited young lady as she is,
giving her time to realize that she actually does want to be Christina's lover.
But it is a few weeks now, he clearly doesn't want to come back. He has really
hurt Christina, and proud as she is she would never accept him ever again as
her sissy-consort.”
I wanted to say something. Anything. I
wanted to shout I could take it all back, that I would have dragged Daniëlle
back to her bed if I could. If only I wasn't so selfish! I would do anything to
undo Mistress' broken heart. I tried to swallow the remained of the brandy down
in one go, but choked halfway. I coughed. Droplets of brandy ran down my chin.
“I... I am *cough* so sorry.” It came from
the heart, but it sounded rather pathetic.
She looked at me, as if trying to decide I
was referring to breaking Mistress' heart, or spilling expensive brandy. She
settled for an indecisive “What's done is done.”
She picked up the bottle again and poured
herself another drink. Then she poured some more in my glass even though it was
still half-full. We sat there for some time, just thinking I suppose. Madame
Directrice was in deep thought, probably examining her options in the fallout
of this débâcle. Every now and then her eyes aimed in my direction
I was struggling with my emotions. Anger at
Daniëlle for leaving. Anger with myself for helping her leave. Feeling
remorseful for breaking Mistress’ heart. Feeling angry with myself for caring.
She had turned me in a sissy without my consent, after all. She would make me
cry without a second thought if it pleased her, and relish it. I should have
hated the woman, gloat on her misfortune.
I also felt fear. Fear of what she would do
to me when Madame Directrice informed her. Fear of being shipped off to cruel
Mistress Margot, who would undoubtedly be very angry with me as well. But above
all fear of being forced to leave. Despite everything she had made me go
through, I did love her.
My eyes became tear-stained yet again.
“When...” I cleared my throat, which was hoarse with sadness. “When will you
tell Mistress, Madame Directrice?”
She didn't answer immediately. She just
looked at me for a moment. She leaned forward, elbows on the desk, hand folded
and index fingers on her lower lip. Her eyes betrayed little. This afternoon
I'd seen more emotion from this woman than the rest of my time here since I
arrived. But now her composure was again very professional. Time for regret was
over, now it was time for action. I felt like I was being illuminated with a
spotlight.
“I won't. Not everything at least. Not
now.” She said without a hint of emotion.
I just stared at her in utter confusion.
“I... I don't understand...”
She was silent for a moment, seemingly
weighing her words carefully. “Listen Cheryl, I like to think I'm a good friend
to Christina. And as a friend, I sometimes need to tell her things she prefers
not to hear. But it also means that, every now and then, I need to keep silent
about something she is better of not knowing. Also, she may be my employer, but
she does not tell me what to do or how to do it. Instead, she tells me what she
wants and I will get it done. My way. And I know what she wants.”
She took a sip from her drink, but kept her
eyes on me. “Right now my friend's heart has been broken. Also, my employer's
business interests are in danger. There are always sharks circling, and they
have smelled blood. Maybe, just maybe, I can fix both. But it involves you, and
it will not work if Christina would hear you betrayed her as well.”
“Me?” I gasped. “But... How? ...I mean
…What could I possibly do?”
Madame ignored my questions. She stood up
from her seat and wandered around the room, still holding her glass, but not
taking a sip. Though every step was graceful, her heels hit the floor with a
strong, forceful thud. Completely different from my own heels'
'click-click-click' sound that I still hadn't grown accustomed to, and probably
never will.
“I was never comfortable with the idea of
Margot offering Daniëlle as a sissy to Christina. From a public relations
perspective it was a horrible idea. Even if the marriage and merger went
perfectly smoothly, there would be a lot of interest in Christina and details
of her personal life would undoubtedly come to light.” She was looking out the
window as she spoke.
“Here in Switzerland we are pretty
tolerant. If a young man decides to put on dresses and act all girly around
some older lady, well, that is a bit strange. But if that is what he wants and
he doesn't cause any trouble? Sure, why not. It's a free country. Anyone should
be able to live the life he desires.” She shook her head. “But if that young
man clearly has lived like that for several years, and then marries his aunt's
business partner the moment he comes of age? That will set off a lot of alarm bells.
Cause a storm of problems. I tried to tell Christina of the risk she was
taking, but she ignored me.”
She took a sip for her drink, silently,
reminiscing over some old memory.
“And on a personal note, I didn't like it
either. In my line of work I have met a lot of unsavoury characters, but the
worst were those that took away other people's right to choose their lives. And
here it was happening right under my nose. Daniel never chose this life. I have
made my choices and my allegiance is to Christina, but I did pity the boy.”
Her eyes crossed mine. She glared at me,
silencing me before I could say anything.
“Don't you dare look at me like that. You chose this life, remember? I offered you
the opportunity to walk away, but you wanted to be Christina's maid, signed the
contract. More importantly, you keep
choosing this life. Brigitt, Ingrid and Martina had you in a dress in a few
hours. You were sucking Christina's dildo a day later, were Margot's belle of
the ball shortly after and begging Christina to make you her girl only a single
day after that. You could even have left with Daniëlle when she ran away, but
you didn't. You may not like everything that has happened to you, at least that
is what you try to tell yourself, but we both know this is the life you really want!”
She kept looking at me as I started to sob.
Part of me wanted to shout out. Scream that they
did this to me. Mistress Christina, Brigitt, Madame Directrice and all the
others, they forced me into this. Into dresses, heels, this ridiculous hair.
They made me suck all those dildos, force them up my rear, make me walk and
talk like some dumb bimbo. But another part simply asked one question: why
didn't I resist?
Madame Directrice looked over the rim of
her glass. “It is what you are good at.”
That was a strange thing to say. “Madame
Directrice?” I asked surprised, still sobbing.
She sighed as she leaned against the desk.
“Cheryl, I've seen many sissies pass through these doors. All have left at some
point. Most just couldn't keep up with Christina. She even broke some in the
process. She cared for each and every one of them, in her own way, but in the
end they were just maids to her, toys, because none of them could give her what
she really wanted.”
There were still tears in my eyes, but I
hardly felt it as I became enthralled by Madame Directrice's story. I just had
to ask: “What does she want?”
She smiled gently. “What we all want in the
end, silly. Love. She wants to be loved. And wants someone to love. A partner
to spend her life with.”
Her face grew stern again. “But it would
have to be on her terms. No
compromises. She is who she is, and she is a Mistress. She needs someone to
complete her, and the only one who can is a sissy. She was certain it would be
Daniëlle, but I think it could be someone else.”
My eyes opened wide. “Me?” I whispered.
“Possibly. You clearly love her, and she
has grown quite fond of you since you arrived. You have become more to her than
just another maid.” She shrugged.
My heart started to lighten. I may have
given a cheer then and there, but Madame Directrice’s glare silenced me. She
was not finished.
“You must understand something, and you
better understand it well. Her love would be vicious. She would not love you as a man, as you obviously are not
one. She would not love you as a woman, because no sane woman would indulge
herself in such ridiculous femininity as you do. Do not even kid yourself that
she could ever love you like an equal. She would love you for what you are, a
sissy. Submissive, feminine, humiliated and controlled.”
She let the words sink in for a moment
before continuing
“Make no mistake, those are your best qualities. If she'd love you she'd bring out
those qualities in you again and again and again. Just like you would nurture
her most dominant and stern qualities in return, all out of love. Your peril is
her delight and her delight your peril, in a never-ending cycle. She would drag
you crying and weeping to the limits of what you think you can endure and then
throw you off the edge, laughing.”
She pointed the index finger of the hand
holding the glass straight at me.
“Think she'll marry you? She will never put
her ring on your hand. Give you companionship? She will domineer your every
waking moment. Peace? Nothing but a brief moment of respite from her cruel
attentions. Stability? The moment you get used to them, she will change the
rules. Sex? She will fuck you in ways you cannot even imagine and perhaps let
you touch her if you are particularly satisfying, but you will never have any
control over your own little clitty again, ever.
She would circle you like a shark smelling blood, ready to pounce on you the
second you make the slightest error. Or are particularly cute. Or vulnerable.
Or whenever she damn-well pleases. It will take a lot of effort on her part, but she would do it because she'd love
you.”
She finished her brandy. “Drink up,” she
told me. I gulped it down. The liquid burned in my throat, but left a smooth
flavour on my tongue. She took my glass and placed it on her desk, then crossed
her arms.
“You love Christina? Want her to love you?
Then ask yourself if you can endure her. If you cannot, then I will make you
leave. Today. No goodbyes, no second thoughts. Better that way. If you can,
then say so. Right now. Wheels have to be put in motion. A price has to be
paid.”
“A price?” I asked in confusion.
“We all paid a price for this débâcle.
Christina got her heart broken. Margot lost her heir. Two corporations are now
at each other's throats. And I have lost three years of stress and
nicotine-free life trying to clear this mess up. Only fair you will pay a price
too.”
I nodded, but I had to ask. “What is the
price, Madame Directrice?”
“I'm not sure yet. But it will be something
you'll miss. Oh, don't looked so shocked, silly girl. I'm not going to cut of that little clitty of yours. It's the part that
amuses Christina the most,” she admonished, though sounding somewhat amused.
She leaned over and grabbed my chin, her
nose was only an inch from mine. Her eyes pierced into mine. I wanted to look
away, but couldn't.
“The life of a sissy and a price. All for
the possibility, one chance, for the love of Mistress Christina. That is the
offer. Yes or no. I need to know right now.” she said softly, icily.
I did love Mistress Christina. But this had
gone way too far. I had a life before all this. Not much, but it was a normal
life. No-one treated me like servant, or a doll. Nobody forced me to wear
women's clothing. Or forced me to act like a stupid bimbo. Or humiliated me
before the rest of the world. I was free.
I thought of Mistress Christina. Yes, I
loved her. But she didn't love me. I was just like the others. A maid. A toy. A
prized pet perhaps, but she would not love me. Her mocking laugh, I could hear
it in my mind. That is not the laugh of love. I thought of her mocking smile,
which oozed contempt.
My eyes widened, though I saw nothing but
Mistress' mocking face before me. I realized something else. Her eyes radiated
something. A glimmer, nothing more, but I was sure it was there. It had to be there.
Pride. Affection. Love?
“Yes.” I said. Wavering. Whimpering. But I
meant it.
She let go of my chin and leaned backwards.
She looked down on me for a moment, then just nodded.
She walked around her desk and picked up
her phone. She dialled a number and waited for a moment before speaking. She
spoke Swiss-German, so I didn't understand a single word, but she seemed to be
giving short commands over the phone.
She listened to the reply on the other end
of the line. She looked at me for a moment, then said a single word. Vorgehen. Then hung up the phone before
picking up another cigarette and lighting it.
“So it begins,” she said enigmatically.
“With some luck, we can mend the rift between Christina and Margot. Save
thousands of jobs.”
I gasped. I was so focused on Mistress
Christina that I forgot about all the other interests involved. “Can I help?” I
asked shyly.
She stared at me, then laughed. “Well, I
still need some spies in a few conference rooms. Perhaps you should be the
hostess? I bet you'd look adorable in a pink maid's outfit. Tottering around in
your heels, trying to eavesdrop on some nasty little secrets while serving
biscuits. That would really lighten the day of those uptight old suits. Some of
those stiffs really could use a good blow-job. Perhaps you can supply that too.
Interested?”
I pouted as she laughed at her own joke. I
was just trying to help.
She blew a whiff of smoke. “No, I think
you'd better stay right here. Just do what you do best, be a good little sissy.
Keep Christina end Margot happy. That should give me enough leverage to get
them and their companies back together.”
“Mistress Margot too?” I gasped.
“Sure,” she said as she studied the tip of
her cigarette. “Daniëlle was not the only one who was part of the arrangements
between Christina and Margot. You
were too. Margot has a claim on you.”
“A claim?” I said in disbelief.
“Oh, yes. For over a year now Margot and
Christina have been in a tug-of-war over Daniëlle. She may have been intended
from the start to be Christina's consort, but until that day she kept her
'niece' out of Christina's reach, forcing her to give concessions to get even a
glimpse of Daniëlle.”
“Then out of the blue you came along.
Christina immediately saw your potential, but her eye was still on Daniëlle.
She wanted to offer your services to Margot in exchange for access to Daniëlle.
After your splendid performance as a coquette, that was a done deal.”
“When you had given yourself to Christina,
she understood what a priceless gem she had just traded away, but by then the
deal was set. Christina still owned you, mostly, but Margot had rights on you
too.”
This made my head spin. Rights? Where were
my rights in all this?
“Remember that I said bad things happen
when Margot and Christina fancy the same sissy? After Christina made you her
girl, she tried to renege on her deal with Margot. She immediately responded by
unleashing the attack-dogs of her lawyer team against one of Christina's
subsidiaries on some phony charges. Brigitt is a member of Christina's top
legal team, and she was furious when I informed her. Perhaps you remember. You
were there.”
I remembered all right. I fought an urge to
scratch my bottom.
“We managed to work out a compromise.
Neither would get access to either of you for a few weeks, long enough for
things to settle down, while Brigitt and Ingrid would supervise your training.
After a week or two we managed to make a schedule that both parties agreed on.
You would spend a week with Margot and Daniëlle with Christina. Then both would
return home and you would be fair game for Christina again. Until the next
exchange with Daniëlle, that is.”
I shook my head in utter disbelief. This
was all going on at that time? I thought Mistress had almost forgotten about
me. I could barely imagine something short of all-out war was being fought over
me. I felt a morbid sense of pride for a moment. Then it was gone when I
realized that my opinion on the matter was not relevant, let alone considered.
“But now Daniëlle is gone. And both women
still want you. Preferably all to themselves. Christina is very generous with loaning out her sissies to her friends,
but actually sharing them?” She shook
her head. “They would tear the rift between them open to an unbridgeable divide
unless we can get them to share. That is where you come in. I can engineer an
appropriate schedule for the two of them, but you must make them both happy. I
can tell you that you will be a very busy girl soon.”
“I can't do that!” I blurted out. “I cannot
make Mistress Margot happy. I do not love her. I hate her!”
Madame Directrice simply shrugged. “Doesn't
matter. Margot doesn't want your love. She thinks you are very entertaining. And you fear her. That is all she needs from
you. Just be yourself, and it will work out just fine.”
I drew a sad face. I knew that I would
endure hardship if I chose to remain with Mistress Christina, but I had hoped
against hope that at least I would be just her sissy. That illusion didn't last
long.
“So what happens now, Madame Directrice?” I
finally asked.
“Now? Now you go freshen up on your
make-up. The tears made a mess out of it. Then you get back to your duties.”
She looked on her watch as she extinguished her cigarette “It seems to me that
you should be ironing your panties by now, but I'm pretty sure neither the
laundry or dishes have been done yet, you lazy girl.”
“Yes. Madame Directrice, thank you.” I got
up and walked to my regular spot before the desk and performed a curtsy.
“May I be excused, Madame Directrice?”
“Wait, one more thing Cheryl. This is
important.” She said as she leaned against her desk, arms crossed in front of
her.
“Yes, Madame Directrice?”
“We will need to be discreet about this.
Christina is still quite upset with what happened, and if she hears what we
talked about, she might do something that she'll later regret. I'll tell her
what she needs to know. Now, I do not want you to lie to her, good heavens no.
But if she asks anything, just answer the question, truthfully, but do not
elaborate, speculate, or start babbling. Same with Miss Rosenberg or anyone
else. Understood?”
“Yes Madame Directrice. I understand.” It
did make me feel uncomfortable, though. Again I was hiding something from
Mistress Christina. And what if she asked a direct question about what happened
to Daniëlle? Me keeping secrets caused this mess in the first place. How could
more secrets possibly solve it?
“A lot depends on this, so are you very
sure? Promise? Good. Let's shake on it.” She held out her right hand.
That was awkward. Since I came here I never
shaken anyone's hand. Ever. I just bobbed curtsies. But Madame Directrice
seemed insistent, and I could not refuse.
I held out my hand, ladylike, the tips of
my fingers softly in the palm of Madame Directrice's outstretched hand. I
smiled daintily. Madame Directrice smiled back, but her smile didn't reach her
eyes.
I barely realized what happened next.
Madame Directrice grabbed my hand in a vice-like grip. Then in one quick pull,
she drew me forward, off balance. I yelped in surprise and dismay.
As I was flung forward, Madame Directrice
simply stepped out of my way, never letting go of my hand. I tried to regain my
balance, but one casually outstretched foot tripped me. My torso slammed on top
of the desk, causing me to shriek. She moved my hand on my back, putting it in
a painful arm lock. She pushed her knee against my thigh, locking it against
the side of the desk so I wouldn't be able to kick her even if I dared to. With
her free hand she took hold of the crop still on the desk.
“Unfortunately, your promise is just not
good enough. You promised Christina you'd obey, and still you betrayed her.”
She ran the tip of the crop along the side of my face. “So much depends on what
I'll be able to achieve the next few weeks, and that depends on you. But right
now you are a liability. Untrustworthy. I do not have the time or the
inclination to train you in the subtle art of keeping your big mouth shut. So
I'll have to settle for the next best thing: giving you a taste of what will
happen if you should screw this up.”
She struck the air with her crop. It made a
frightful 'whoosh' sound.
I begged and pleaded. “I promise, Madame
Directrice!” I was crying again. “I can keep a secret! No-one will know!”
She took hold of my arm with her left hand,
gave it a painful tug for good measure, and transferred the crop to her right
hand as she casually leaned against the desk to my left.
“That is another thing. Keeping secrets is my around job here. I make sure everyone
will hear what they need to hear when they need to hear it.”
She leaned over me, her mouth close to my
ear. “You however, do not get to keep
any secrets! Not from me!” She
snarled. “If you ever have a thought more significant than whether your dress
matches your heels, you tell me! Understand, Kleine?”
She struck the air again. It made a 'whoosh'
sound.
“Yes, Madame Directrice!” I wailed. Begged.
“I understand. I swear! Please, don't hit me! I'll do whatever you say!”
“Yes. You will.” She split the air with her
crop, using the full force of her whole arm and wrist at once. I heard a
terrible 'swish' sound buzz in the air.
“Better,” she muttered to herself as she
tightened her grip on the crop. Then fixed her cold eyes on me, meticulously
determining where to begin.
Am I missing something. The last chapter I saw was 25. What happened to chapters 26-30?
ReplyDeleteKaren, I thought I explained this already. Did you not bother to read my intro or my previous blog entry? I tried to ask readers for their opinions as to what I should do about this situation, but didn't get much feedback. Perhaps, like you, they didn't bother to read my last post.
ReplyDeleteBambi never finished writing the school arc. I haven't heard from him in eight months and he can't or won't respond to the many emails I've sent him. With the author M.I.A., the future of this story looks very uncertain, and because readers have been waiting so long, I finally made an executive decision to just post the rest of the chapters that Bambi did write.
I'm sorry for the confusion, but the only other option was for me to continue to keep the rest of the completed chapters to myself while hanging onto the increasingly slim hope that Bambi would suddenly come through with an update. Well, got sick of waiting. I know Game of Thrones fans have had to wait years in between books, but they also know that George R.R. Martin is alive and I can't even say that much about Bambi at this point.
My apologies. I guess I didn't quite understand what was happening. Thank you for the work you are putting into in keeping Bea's blog alive.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry if I wasn't clear enough in my explanation. I've edited the intro to this journal to put things as plainly as possible just in case I confused anyone else.
ReplyDeleteHi Dave
ReplyDeleteAbsolutely brilliant piece of art.
Haven’t read the text yet, still going back to the illustration.
An ideal portrayal of the humiliation of forced feminisation- at least for me. The posture of the hero bent over at just the right angle, his derriere jutting out to meet the domme’s groin. The look on his face seems to be somewhere between the now accepted discomfort of regular corset wearing and resignation at what is to come as he holds the whip between his teeth. Then there are the clothes, not the usual maid’s uniform but an extremely tight pencil skirt and a white see through blouse allowing everyone to see his corset beneath. The sleeves billowing out slightly is a great touch as is the black choker, yet another symbol of his servitude (as if his outfit did not proclaim this clearly enough.)
The attitude of the woman seems so matter of fact, not taking any undue pleasure just ensuring her maid is laced correctly.
It’s perfect Dave, one of your best pieces.
Thanks so much for sharing. Now I suppose I’d better read the chapter.
Carrie
Ps For what it’s worth, the original intro seemed pretty clear to me.
Wow, thanks for the thoughtful comment, Carrie. Ironically, I opted not to charge my patrons on Patreon for this drawing because I was afraid it wasn't good enough. Not that I was disappointed with it... I just felt it was a little too rushed/simplistic. Even though I didn't produce a lot of new fetish art last year, I thought I'd set the bar a bit higher with what little work I did manage to do. A couple of my best pieces were drawn after a great deal of planning onto 11" x 14" paper. How could then turn around and charge for something I'd scribbled without too much thought onto half a page from my sketchbook? Perhaps I was being too hard on myself. Within the first couple days or so of uploading it to deviantART, it's gotten over two thousand views and a couple people left comments about how my art has improved. So what do I know?
ReplyDeleteI know this story has not been your cup of tea, Carrie, but maybe these last few chapters will provide a greater appreciation for why I've been championing Bambi's writing so hard. It's really at this point that I feel the story takes a somewhat more sentimental turn, though it still might not be enough to change someone's mind about it if they're put off by the kinky mistreatment Cheryl endures. Considering how intense the story can be, I like that Bambi inserts these occasional breaks in the action where characters just sit and talk and reflect. I don't think Bea's writing was ever so introspective.