It's been so long since I've posted anything, I almost forgot how to do it. This is not a new drawing; I did it almost a year ago, not quite in time for Christmas of 2016, but here it is now. I can't think of anything else to say about it.
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Saturday, December 23, 2017
Monday, December 18, 2017
Manhattan Marriage
Didn’t realise it’s been so
long since I posted something. It’s coming up to Bea’s second anniversary on
Christmas Day and he would not be pleased. I thought I had better post
something before I get a visit from the Ghost of Christmas Past.
I did not have time to
write something new so this will have to do, I posted this elsewhere so some
readers may have read it before.
The story is not based in
the present but in a more elegant period somewhere between the 30’s and 50’s.
Have a good and safe Christmas.
Carrie
A
Manhattan Marriage
By
CarrieP
The
tears came. At first these came as short bursts of sobbing which then quickly
progressed to more prolonged weeping.
It
had been a particularly trying afternoon for William but then again this was
now true of every afternoon or to be more precise it was true of every day.
No man
should have to go through this torture he said to
himself as he dried his eyes avoiding the mirror as he did so although he knew
this was ridiculous as he would eventually have to fix his make-up. He finally
composed himself and tried to gather his thoughts.
Of
course I know I shoulder some responsibility for this dreadful situation. I was
far too naive, mesmerised by the glamour and glitter of Sophia’s wealth and
position. Yes I was too gullible, he continued to
berate himself as he looked down at the full length housecoat of the softest
velvet in a most delicate shade of peach and felt another sob rise from within.
So foolish, so stupid how could I have
been such an idiot.
These
were the thoughts that ran through his head as he looked around the large bathroom
of his mother in law’s spacious and elegantly appointed Manhattan apartment.
This outpouring of frustration and emotion had become a daily occurrence and
like every other aspect of his recent life it seemed powerless to control. Much
as he hated to admit it this utter lack emotional control was a particularly
feminine quality and one he seemed to be incapable of subduing.
It
all happened so fast but how did I allow it get to this stage? he said quietly as he finally plucked up the courage to look at
himself in the mirror and recalled the early days of his relationship with
mother and daughter.
The van Horne’s were an old and extremely
wealthy New York family and mesmerised not only by this wealth but also the social
influence of Sophia and her mother he was flattered when he received an
invitation to dine with them. He was smitten from the very start and although
he felt Mrs van Horne was a little bit overbearing he reasoned this was from
the perspective of protecting her daughter from gold diggers and this he
thought entirely reasonable. In the subsequent weeks, seduced by their gilded
lifestyle, he was inexorably drawn into their orbit. Soon all three became
inseparable and it was not long before he was invited to stay with them on a
permanent basis. Their luxurious apartment in Manhattan and their large house
in the Hamptons made it impossible to refuse and he quickly became used to
their opulent way of life. From the beginning Mrs van Horne was very generous
to their new companion, fussing over him and lavishing him with expensive gifts
as well as opening accounts in the most exclusive stores. He often wondered how
he lived without such luxury and not only that but he now had the added bonus
of having an attractive woman as a girlfriend. It didn’t take too long before
Sophia’s mother made it known that she would welcome him as a son-in-law and
also made it abundantly clear he would benefit greatly from a union with her
daughter.
It was only now dressed as he was that he
realised he should have been more circumspect in this new relationship when he
remembered what Mrs van Horne said on one occasion.
“He is such a darling boy Sophia, not a bit
macho or aggressive like those other men you have dated.... and those high
cheek bones and delicate features.... there are quite..... ”
She paused for moment before exclaiming,
“Feminine. It’s almost
as if..... ”
“Mother!” Sophia said brusquely cutting off her mother,
giving her a glare for good measure” You’re embarrassing William.”
“Oh I don’t mean to, you’re not embarrassed
are you darling?” her mother replied calmly as she acknowledged her daughter s
interruption by stroking his face gently.
He was extremely disconcerted by her
remarks but was too flustered to say anything. Mrs van Horne continued,
“
and..... he has such wonderful
possibilities.”
Those
words should have woken me up. he said to himself
bitterly.
The
wedding was hastily arranged and was an extremely low key affair just the three
of them and a city hall official as Sophia had to leave for Europe on a
prearranged trip for the cultural foundation which the family’s wealth funded.
A pathological fear of boats prevented William from accompanying his new bride
although looking back on it now he wasn’t sure if he was even asked.
“This is most irregular, a husband should
always be at his wife’s side. Seasickness is an extremely poor excuse for not
escorting my daughter abroad.” she snorted indignantly when he told her of his
phobia and only Sophia’s reasoned argument that she would be unable to
concentrate on her mission if she also had to look after him eventually calmed
her mother.
“Think of it as a quid pro quo Mother.” Sophia said on the dock as she boarded the
liner.
“What!” her mother replied sharply.
“Well you’re not losing a daughter you are
gaining a son.” Sophia answered.
“Mmm...Quid pro quo, you say.” her mother repeated
in a thoughtful voice.
“Perhaps it’s all for the best.” Sophia
said to William as she kissed him gently on the cheek “Mummy will need the
company when I’m gone and there is so much to arrange for the wedding reception
on my return, I’m sure you will be a great help and comfort to her.”
“Don’t worry Sophia.” her mother assured
her daughter, William could see her demeanour had changed considerably.“I will
take very good care of him as I always do. Isn’t that right William?”
“Yes of course Mrs van Horne.” he answered
a little nervously.
“Oh come now, no need to be so formal dear
boy, we are family now.” his mother in law said as she slipped her arm under
his and drew him close, so close that he could feel the wiring in her large
brassiere.”You really must address me as Mummy. That will be part of our quid
pro quo, don’t you agree?”
He did not answer but she pulled him
sharply to her and arched her eyes in an inquisitorial manner. A reply was
expected – the correct reply. He felt extremely uneasy but did not want to
cause an argument just as Sophia was leaving.
“Yes ...Mummy.” he said softly.
“Wonderful. I’m so relieved you two are not
arguing. ” Sophia chirped as she kissed her mother and climbed the gangway.
“Quid pro quo, dear boy, quid pro quo.” his
mother in law said as she led him away.
****************************
“I
thought I should remind you...........” a voice interrupted his recollections.
Anna his mother in law’s loyal and trusted maid
appeared, a smile forming at the corner of her mouth, her eyes scornfully
scanning the figure in a lady’s housecoat, before belatedly adding in a tone dripping with mockery “....Sir.
Miss Sophia will be telephoning from Paris very shortly.”
He winced at the glaringly obvious
expression of ridicule in her voice. Only a few days ago he would berate her, a
mere maid, for such insolence but now dressed as he was and knowing that she would
report any such outburst to her mistress he knew it was best to ignore her
scornful manner and try to maintain some semblance of dignity.
“Thank you Anna” he said trying to sound as
authoritative as a man could to whilst wearing his wife’s clothes.
“Would...sir....like some help
with his make-up?” the maid asked as she entered the bathroom and unnecessarily
rearranged the already neatly folded towels. “Madam will be home shortly and
I’m sure she will wonder how your make-up became so smudged. She went to so much trouble applying it this
morning I really think she will not be pleased to find your face in such a
state.”
He looked in the mirror and saw she was
right, his tears had cause his mascara to run and the tissues he used to dry
them had ruined his immaculately made-up face and through the blotches he could
see his faint masculine characteristics trying to emerge. His mother in had warned
him on several occasions to ensure his make-up was always kept in perfect
condition and he knew she would not be pleased to find his face in such
disarray. Such was his anxiety about displeasing her he quickly agreed to the
maid’s suggestion.
“Yes.... I suppose you are right.” he
reluctantly conceded.
The maid smiled as she stood to one side
and silently gestured he return to the bedroom and without having to be told he
walked to the dressing table holding up the long housecoat so he would not
trip.
“As sir will have to dress shortly I think
it would save time if you removed your housecoat before I retouch your
make-up.” Anna said.
He could not see the point of this request
but the last few days dressed as a woman had destroyed his confidence and
without questioning her he timidly complied. He unbuttoned the housecoat and
she took it from him and placed it in on the bed.
“Is that Madam’s new Dior corselette?” she
said as she ran her hands over the heavy black satin material stretched tightly
over his buttocks.
His embarrassment and vulnerability
prevented him from answering, he could only nod his confirmation. Anna
continued “it really gives you such a wonderfully feminine figure but ... if sir
will permit me... I think your straps need a little adjustment.”
He remained silent as she turned him
around, he could feel her warm breath on his neck and her groin pressing hard
into his plump behind as she altered the corselette’s brassiere straps to her
satisfaction and then gently stroked his arms. It took him a few seconds to
break free of the tight hold she had of him, Anna merely smiled at his feeble
attempt to shake off her grip, she finally let him go and he quickly moved to
the dressing table.
“I
hope you don’t mind me saying ...sir” she said as she applied the
cream to his face “you have such fine features, high cheek bones, full lips,
expressive eyes and long lashes. And Madam’s hairdresser told me your hair was
a pleasure to work with....that perm really suits you and it only took two
hours under the dryer. Maybe next time she will bring you to the salon and you
can have your nails done at the same time. ”
He visibly winced but remained silent, this
could not possibly be true. He had already done everything Sophia’s mother
asked – and more so there was no reason for him to continue to wear women’s
clothing. Anna was so loyal to her
mistress he did not want to say what he really felt because he knew this would be
immediately reported back and would only antagonise his mother in law. He
remained impassive hoping she would discontinue this line of conversation but
his reticence only enthused her.
“I mean .. ” she said as she now applied a
smokey shade of eye-shadow “...it must make it so much easier for you.” He was
afraid to ask what she meant and held his tongue but it didn’t matter as she
clearly considered it a rhetorical question. She noticed his reluctance to
engage in the conversation and persisted in the one sided exchange.
“Now that you have had a few days wearing
such beautiful clothes you probably feel more comfortable in skirts and
dresses, and Madam’s gorgeous corselette gives you such a womanly figure you
probably will not want to return to wearing men’s boring clothes. She told me you have been such a great comfort
and support to her while Miss Sophia is away she has purchased an entire
wardrobe especially for you. She really has such excellent taste in clothes,
wait until you see what she has bought for you. You will look simply stunning.”
He could not believe his ears, this was
some cruel joke on Anna’s part.
“W..what!” he almost screamed.
The sound of the phone rang in the bedroom.
“Excuse me sir.” She said unfazed by his
outburst and left him with his mouth open “that will probably be Miss Sophia.”
“No, this can’t be true.” he said out loud
“I’ve done everything she asked.”He was still trying to process what Anna had
said as the maid returned.
“Miss Sophia is on the line from Paris....sir”
she said.
At
last he said to himself as he gathered the heavy
skirts of his housecoat and rushed to the bedroom. Once Sophia hears what I have done to indulge her mother’s wishes she
will soon put a stop to this nonsense.
“Hello darling.” Sophia’s husky voice
crackled down the phone line “The voyage was quite pleasant, no bad weather and
we arrived on schedule. Paris is wonderful, we really must come here on our
honeymoon, you and Mother will absolutely love it. She sent me a telegram
telling me how marvellous you have been, she is so impressed with you.”
“Oh Sophia...”he interrupted her, his voice
almost breaking with emotion “it’s dreadful your mother has kept me in your
clothes since the day after you sailed.”
“Calm down darling, don’t get too
hysterical.” Sophia said in an unruffled tone “Yes dear, she telephoned me
earlier but just as she was about to explain the line broke down, she said
something about my wedding gown.”
“Yes..yes.. that’s how it started.” he
blurted “your dressmaker wasn’t aware you had left for Europe and arrived the
morning after you sailed with several bridal gowns that you wished to try on
before deciding which one you preferred. Your mother said she would like to see
them modelled before choosing one.”
“Oh that’s right, I trust Mother’s
judgement completely she has such wonderful instincts when it comes to these
things. She is a ........” his wife said but did not get to finish the sentence
.
“She said that as you and I were almost a
similar build … and I should.....” he interrupted her, his voice began to
quiver and he stifled a tear “...wear them for her. I refused but she and the
dressmaker insisted saying time was of the essence and they really must see the
gowns modelled before you returned.”
He could no longer hold back the tears and
he began weep.
“Your... mother and Anna......”he sobbed
“practically ....forced me into one of the gowns”
“Oh darling ...such a brave boy.” she said
encouragingly “I know we are a similar build but you are a little bigger than
me particularly around the torso....how did...?”
“They.... made me wear...... “he snivelled
“....one of your mother corselettes.”
“One of her black Dior ones I suppose or
perhaps it was the new Spirella with back lacing?” Sophia asked in a strangely
calm tone.
“The Spirella.”he replied “it was horrible
they laced me in so tightly, can you telephone her and tell her....”
“Are you still wearing it?” she interrupted
him and brushed aside his request.
“No.... she put me in her Dior corselette
today, said it would be more comfortable” he answered distractedly then
desperately tried to persist with his request he blurted “but can you.....”
“Oh that’s better.” she said continuing to
ignore his pleading “her Dior is certainly tight and figure reducing but it is
more comfortable than the new Spirella. I hated it when she insisted I wear it,
it is so constrictive but it does give one a glorious shape, don’t you think?”
This talk of the merits of women’s foundation
garments was making him quite agitated.
“Please darling” he began to insist “can
you telephone her she wants to keep me in women’s clothes until you return. It
is just awful and most humiliating.”
“William I asked you a question.” Sophia
said an annoyed tone in her voice.
The last thing he wanted was to make her
angry.
“I… suppose so…” he was forced to reply
“Yes they do give a girl a wonderful shape”
Sophia said in a reassuring voice, before adding “Darling I know it’s difficult
but try to stay calm.You must understand Mother and I are rarely separated,
being an only child she and I have an extremely strong bond. Now that you have
married me she considers you even closer than a blood relation, she views you as the second child she never
had. Of course the fact that we have- through sheer luck- similar facial
features only strengthened this intense emotional connection and when she saw
you in the bridal gown she probably saw me. You must know just how emotional
mothers get when they see their daughters in bridal gowns.”
“But...”William tried to interrupt but
Sophia ignored him and continued,
“She
was terribly upset when she found out I had to leave for Europe and I know she
berated you for not coming but deep inside she was glad, your presence meant I was
still with her and she took great comfort in that. In our brief conversation
she said she could not manage without your phenomenal help and support.”
“But I can be of comfort and support to her
without ...without...dressing in your clothes.” he appealed “it is so
humiliating having to wear skirts and blouses. She even insists I wear
make-up.”
“Of course she does. Every woman wears
make-up and I’m sure it makes you more presentable otherwise you would probably
look too masculine. ” his wife answered “please darling ....for my sake just
indulge her for the time being. I know this is difficult for you darling but
you have been absolutely wonderful so far. It’s only for another week or so and
it would break her heart if you did stop now. It means so very much to Mother.”
“But ...I...” he began to protest.
Sophia quickly interjected.
“Don’t
forget ......she is extremely generous and you will find you will be greatly
rewarded for your kindness.”
“But darling..” he said and suddenly heard
a hissing on the line, hitting the cradle with his fingers he frantically
exclaimed “hello ....hello
Sophia are you there....”
The line went dead.
************************************
“Good
afternoon Madam, shall I take your coat also?” Anna said as she took her
mistress’s stole.
“No Anna, I am not staying long I have a
meeting with my ladies club. They are simply dying to meet my son-in-law.” Mrs
van Horne replied checking her appearance in the hall mirror before turning
back to her maid “and how is our protégé progressing?”
“He is a little upset again Madam, he keeps
fidgeting with the straps of his corselette, tugging at his garters and I have
to remind him to keep his heels on at all times.” Anna answered “I’m afraid he
still has not come to terms with his ....his...”
“Feminisation?” Mrs van Horne said “I believe that is the
correct term. He is such a darling boy, obviously does not realise he is far
too pretty to strut about in pants like most men. Good heavens with skin like
porcelain, small waist and those delicate features when he wears pants he looks
more like Katherine Hepburn than Humphrey Bogart and the sooner he realises
that the better. He looks so much better
in skirts and so much like Sophia, it’s almost like she never left.”
“ Yes Madam, he does seem to lack rugged
masculine qualities.” Anna agreed “and
the ...ahem...the .. er.. ...protuberance in his chest area certainly does
give him a slightly feminine silhouette.”
“Yes those two small but wonderfully distinct
feminine mounds are apparently why he wears – or used to wear- loose fitting
shirts.”Mrs van Horne said as she refreshed her lipstick in the mirror “All the
more reason he should be wearing a proper brassiere. Don’t you agree Anna?”
“Of course Madam.” her maid concurred “In
fact I have noticed his posture has improved since he has been wearing one. And
if I may say so Madam, he does have quite shapely legs.....for a man.”
“Yes he does, doesn’t he? And those grey
seamed stocking are perfect on him.” Mrs van Horne agreed “And his attitude has
improved greatly, he wasn’t as compliant when I first met him, however as he
gradually came under my influence and I established my authority over him his
manner changed considerably. It was
quite subtle at first of course, he didn’t even know it had happened but after
a day or two I knew he would make the perfect male companion for me and an ideal
husband for Miss Sophia. You see Anna, society ladies like myself and Miss
Sophia require only the outward or superficial presence of a male, but as you
know very well, that is exactly what it is – a charade. Males are in fact mere
window dressing- trophy husbands for ladies like us. Of course the best way to
ensure they do not get ideas about any macho behaviour is to gradually dress
them in pretty feminine clothes. This engenders those wonderful qualities of
obedience and submissiveness in the male thus making him – as I have said - the
perfect companion and husband.”
“I think there is no doubt he will make Madam
a most suitable companion.”Anna said “but he does seem a little agitated at the
moment. He was crying in the bathroom earlier.”
“Oh that is a good sign Anna.” Mrs
van Horne chirped a broad smile spreading across her face “it means he is
coming to terms with his new circumstances, albeit reluctantly. It may also
mean he has a more feminine streak in him than we thought, after all what kind
of man is so easily persuaded into wearing a bridal gown and then his wife’s
trousseau.”
“Yes Madam it was wonderful to see his
masculinity fade under your persuasive arguments.” Anna said “I just wish Miss
Sophia was here to see it.”
“Yes but it will be worth it she will have
a perfectly trained wife when she returns in a few weeks.” Mrs van Horne
replied. “Now go fetch the dear boy I think he may need some reassurance and
his poor masculine ego may need a little massaging.”
***************************
“Ah, there you are ......my beautiful son-in law.” Mrs van Horne gushed as William
perched on his four inch heels minced his way into the drawing room.
“Oh Mrs van.....”he bleated.
“Now, now William.” she gently chided him
“I thought we agreed how you should address me. And while you are at it do so
in the correct manner that befits ladies of your social standing.”
The young man stopped and hesitated, he
could feel another layer of embarrassment envelop him but he knew he would have
to comply with her wishes otherwise there would be a prolonged conversation
which he would lose anyway. He swallowed hard and saw Anna, who had positioned
herself behind her mistress, smile triumphantly. He hated this form of address
as much as he hated his new clothes.
“Good afternoon .......Mummy.” he said
quietly.
“Can you speak up William, you are not a
schoolgirl meeting the headmistress.” his mother –in-law rebuked him.
“Good afternoon ....Mummy.” he repeated in
a louder but still meek voice.
“Much better.” Mrs van Horne said
approvingly, her voice more gentle now. “Now come and greet me the way we
agreed, in a more affectionate manner.”
Hours spent in high heels under Anna’s
supervision now became second nature and he moved across the room in a
distinctively womanly gait and embraced his mother-in –law, kissing her on the
cheek in an unmistakably feminine fashion.
“Now tell Mummy what exactly is upsetting
you?”Mrs van Horne asked in her most soothing voice.
“It’s just that.... well....”he said
haltingly almost afraid to say the words “....these clothes, Sophia’s
clothes....it’s just ....not right ... I mean I should have my....”
“Ah yes my darling I think I understand.” his
mother-in- law gently interrupted his babbling “you feel you should have your
own clothes to wear.”
“Exactly!” he blurted and now that he could see she was in good humour,
he thought it a good idea to add ingratiate himself to her........“Mummy.”
He could see she was thinking over the idea
and he decided to press his case.
“You see Mummy I think I have worn Sophia’s
clothes long enough.” he began tentatively as she settled herself on the couch
and listened to him intently “I know you miss Sophia and that is very
understandable, she is your only daughter after all and I know you feel closer
to her when you see me dressed in her clothes but I’m sure I will still remind
you of her if I can wear my own clothes.”
He allowed his mother in law to absorb his
argument before continuing.
“I will still be the same person and..” he
decided to play what he considered to be his trump card “ like Sophia I will
always be devoted to you.”
“Of course you are right dear boy, I should
have seen it sooner.”Mrs van Horne said “I suppose it was intolerable of me to
ask you to wear Sophia’s clothes. I see my mistake now, how foolish of me and
thank you for bringing it to my notice. Of course you should have your own
clothes.”
William breathed a sigh of relief. At last
she understood.
“Tomorrow we will go to the most exclusive
stores in New York and buy you an entire wardrobe of new clothes.” she
exclaimed excitedly “you can have anything your heart desires, Chanel skirts,
Doucet blouses, Schiaparelli and Dior have the most wonderful ball gowns this
season. And of course we simply must get you your own lingerie and foundation
wear. Sophia and I always go shopping together but I never thought I would be
able to do this with you.”
Suddenly he felt a lightness in his head
and his legs became weak, he began to tremble at the knees. His mouth opened
but no words came out.
“Oh this is the most wonderful news.” his
mother-in-law exclaimed in a most excited voice and she stood up and embraced
her speechless son-in-law, “and if we have enough time we can get you a new
hair-do, oh..yes... and of course your nails, maybe even get your ears pierced.
There is so much to be done, isn’t this
thrilling? Oh dear you look pale.... is it all the excitement?”
“I....I.....I think..... I need to sit
down.” he spluttered.
Thursday, June 29, 2017
Intervention
Dear Readers,
This story was meant as another of my 'scenes from family life' series, where lots of family members witness the feminization of one of the members, and even get feminized themselves in the course of the story. However, as I realize that father-son feminzation stories do not blow everyone's skirt up, I re-wrote the story to a more conventional setting. Beside the feminization itself, I wanted to explore the feeling of being trapped in the good intentions of someone who just wants what's best for everyone.
I present both versions, so that you can pick the one you like. Or, better yet, read both and tell me which one you like best.
Hope you like it!
Kindly,
Rosie.
This story was meant as another of my 'scenes from family life' series, where lots of family members witness the feminization of one of the members, and even get feminized themselves in the course of the story. However, as I realize that father-son feminzation stories do not blow everyone's skirt up, I re-wrote the story to a more conventional setting. Beside the feminization itself, I wanted to explore the feeling of being trapped in the good intentions of someone who just wants what's best for everyone.
I present both versions, so that you can pick the one you like. Or, better yet, read both and tell me which one you like best.
Hope you like it!
Kindly,
Rosie.
Friday, May 12, 2017
Relative Interference - A (Very) Short Story - and illustration
I haven’t contributed to the blog for quite
some time – a bit shamefaced about that as Dave and Rosie have been keeping it
going between them.
This is a
very short story I’ve posted elsewhere so some readers will have read it
before.
It’s a small
contribution but hopefully readers will enjoy it.
Carrie
Relative
Interference.
By
CarrieP
“I’m afraid I have some bad news William.” Mrs Sophia Dearlove
addressed the young man in front of her and patting the seat next to her on the
couch added “please sit down.”
The young man immediately knew there was something seriously
wrong as he had never before been invited to sit in his employer’s
presence. He looked nervously at Miss
Grayson the housekeeper and his immediate superior before taking such a
liberty, sitting down in Mrs Dearlove’s company would be deemed quite a serious
faux pas for a member of the domestic
staff. However Miss Grayson nodded her approval but given his position in the
household he was still reluctant to do so.
“It’s quite all right
William.” the housekeeper reassured him “you may sit next to the
mistress.”
It had now been several months since Mrs Dearlove had first
met him at the orphanage where he had spent the previous six years. She was
attending a charity event and afterwards as he had served her and her glamorous
female companions’ coffee she had engaged him in conversation. He clearly
remembered how he blushed when she remarked how delicate and feminine his
features were, an opinion that was endorsed enthusiastically by her friends.
Miss Parker the orphanage’s matron noticed the group of women talking to the
young man and joined them. Mrs Dearlove quickly established that the young man
would remain in the orphanage’s care for another two years, something the boy
was deeply unhappy about as Miss Parker was a petty tyrant and now that his
education had come to an end she was using him as unpaid labour. He recalled
how his heart raced as Mrs Dearlove asked if he would be interested in a
position in her household. Given Mrs
Dearlove‘s power and influence with the orphanage’s Board of Directors Miss
Parker had to agree when William quickly agreed to her offer. The position was
as a houseboy and despite some initial apprehension by the exclusively female
domestic staff he had been treated reasonably well as the sole male. The work wasn’t too hard and Miss Grayson the
housekeeper was far kinder than Miss Parker, apart from a few misdemeanours for
which he had received a mild punishment he had been very happy. Until now.
With all this coursing through his mind it was with a great
degree of nervousness that William crossed the deeply carpeted floor to join
Mrs Dearlove on the couch.
“William, my mother will be staying with me for a few months
and ....”Mrs Dearlove said softly, almost apologetically “...well....she has
some unusual ideas regarding male domestic servants.”
William looked at his employer with a quizzical look, Mrs
Dearlove took a sip of her tea then continued,
“You see she has had several bad experiences in the past
with butlers, footmen etc. and will not employ a male servant. Such is her
aversion that she will not even stay in a house that has a male servant. So you
see my dilemma.....unfortunately I will have to send you back to the
orphanage.”
“Oh Madam ...please not that.” the young man pleaded.
“I’m so sorry William but there is very little I can do
about it.” she answered sympathetically.
“Please Madam.” he implored now almost on the verge of tears
at the prospect of being returned to the orphanage, “I’ll keep out of her way,
stay in the kitchen, the garden...anything.”
“I’m afraid that would not make any difference.” she replied
in a regretful voice.
“Please...Madam....”he was begging now and slipped off the
couch onto his knees.
Miss Grayson bent down and whispered in her mistress’s ear.
“Oh I don’t think the boy would agree to..... that Miss
Grayson.” Mrs Dearlove answered her housekeeper, “But...” she hesitated “...
with his features, those wonderful high cheekbones and those beautiful long
eyelashes perhaps he would pass.”
William sensed there
was a suggestion of a lifeline, he would grasp at any straw that was offered as
the very thought of being returned to the orphanage was enough to make him
weep. Anything would be better than that.
“Stand up dear boy.” Mrs Dearlove said and rising to his
feet both women examined him closely “yes...yes.. if mother is any way
reasonable I think it may be a solution.”
“Turn around William.” Miss Grayson ordered and he quickly
complied “Yes Madam he certainly has possibilities and I’m sure if he was given
some intensive training perhaps Madam’s mother would be willing to consider the
idea.”
William didn’t know what they were talking about but felt
that whatever it was there was no doubt Mrs Dearlove seemed very enthusiastic
and positive, even Miss Grayson seemed more animated than usual. He sensed
there may be some hope of resolving the issue and while they were engaged in
their conversation William considered his own situation. There were many
advantages to working for Mrs Dearlove, he was treated much better and life in
this house was easier than the orphanage, the food was also better and there
were fewer restrictions. Of course he was still a servant but at least his
uniform of a white jacket and black trousers appeared more casual than that of
a maid’s uniform. In this outfit he imagined he could have been mistaken as a
visitor to the house but no one could mistake a female servant as there was a
strict uniform code for Mrs Dearlove’s female servants , blue or grey dresses
in the morning and a black one in the afternoon with the regulation white apron and cap of
course.
“William!” are you
listening?” Mrs Dearlove said in an
exasperated voice, interrupting his thoughts. He looked at her blankly.
“Miss Grayson believes there may be a solution to our little
problem.”Mrs Dearlove informed him as she looked at her housekeeper “ a trifle
unusual but my mother may agree.”
“That’s wonderful.” William blurted, barely containing his
excitement “what is it?”
“As my mother’s objection is to male domestics, you will be
dressed as a housemaid.” Mrs Dearlove exclaimed, clasping her hands to her
bosom with excitement and smiling at him expectantly. “you have such
delicate.... almost feminine facial characteristics, a little make-up and a
light colour lipstick would work wonders.”
“And with the correct foundation garments your figure would
be transformed into a more girlish figure.” Miss Grayson beamed, delighted with
her solution.
William thought he was hearing things.
“A housemaid?” he repeated incredulously.
“Yes, yes” Mrs Dearlove declared in an
exhilarated voice “Isn’t it a wonderful idea? Mother could not possibly
object.”
“I would have to dress as a....a... housemaid? A... girl?”
he asked still unsure that he had heard her correctly.
“Yes of course, it’s the only way we could keep you here.”
Mrs Dearlove replied her voice now losing patience with his questions.
“Well.....I.....it’s just that...a housemaid....”he
stammered not knowing how to respond to such an outrageous suggestion.
“Yes it is unusual I suppose.” Mrs Dearlove said “but there
is no alternative I’m afraid. I suppose it was too much to ask but I really
thought you were happy here but I do understand it is not every day
you are asked to dress as a girl. Such a pity I think you would have been a
great addition to the staff. But it is your decision.”
So many thoughts were running through his head and he barely
noticed Mrs Dearlove had retreated to the couch looking extremely disappointed.
“While you are packing Miss Grayson will call a cab to take
you back to the orphanage.”
Those last two words sent a shiver down his spine, Miss
Parker the matron would view his return from such a prestigious establishment
as Mrs Dearlove’s as a personal insult
and he knew she would make his life miserable.
“I...I...”he spluttered
“Yes?” Mrs Dearlove said.
“I.. didn’t mean to... be disrespectful Madam.” he babbled
as he struggled for the words.
“Yes?” Mrs Dearlove repeated her eyebrows arching ever so
slightly.
“I mean I would like to stay.” he finally blurted.
“As a housemaid?” she said as she elegantly crossed her legs
and fixing him with her large grey eyes added, “ and....wearing the appropriate
uniform?”
He looked at Miss Grayson who still held the telephone in
her hands and felt anything would be better than returning in disgrace to Miss
Parker.
“Yes Madam.” he mumbled.
“Please speak up boy I can barely hear you.” she said and he
could hear the irritation in her voice, the last thing he wanted was to get her
angry.
“Yes Madam I would like to stay .....as.....your...
housemaid and I will wear the appropriate uniform.” he blurted and as the words
left his mouth he could feel a wave of shame wash over him.
“Excellent, Mother will be here soon so we had better get
you into your new uniform. Miss Grayson,will you locate something in his size
and meet me in my bedroom.”
William was still in a fog at what he had just agreed to and
mindlessly followed Mrs Dearlove up the staircase to her room. In the months he
had been in her service he had never been in Madam’s bedroom as Miss Grayson
felt it would not be proper to have a male enter the mistress’s bedroom.
“Stand by the bed.” she instructed him as she went to the
mahogany tallboy “and take off your clothes.”
As he began to slowly remove his shoes Miss Grayson entered
with various items in her arms.
“Oh do hurry William Madam’s mother will be here shortly and
we don’t want her to find we have a male servant in the house.” she said in an
urgent voice and turning to Mrs Dearlove said “I think these will fit him
Madam, they are your former lady’s maid’s uniform, although they may be a
little bit tight.”
“I’m sure once he is in this his new uniform will fit
wonderfully.” she said returning to the bed and held up a long pale blue satin
corset with long laces dangling from its eyelets.
William by this time had stripped to his shorts and gasped
as she held it up to his torso, the full implication of agreeing to her
proposal was finally beginning to emerge in all its horrible reality.
A corset I have to wear a corset he cried to himself.
“Yes dear boy” she said noticing the shocked expression on
his face “I’m afraid wearing restrictive corsetry is among one of the many
sacrifices we ladies have to make to make ourselves presentable.......and now
as part of your new life you too will endure a similar experience. It may seem like torture at first but wearing
such a garment has wonderful benefits, enhancing ones figure and promoting
excellent posture for a girl. There is also a very practical reason for wearing
the corset, to get into your new uniform you will need a little help to shape
your body. And this is the very thing that will achieve the perfect shape.”
The boy felt a surge of terror rising up from within but
despite this he knew he had to tread carefully to avoid arousing her ire.
“How long will I have to dress as a maid Madam?” he asked as
diplomatically as he could.
“Oh only for mother’s visit, then you can revert to your
normal uniform.” she answered absentmindedly as she untangled the corset’s laces.
Well, I suppose it
could be worse. he thought, consoling himself that his humiliation would
not last long.
“A few months at the most.” she added as she unravelled the
last knot
A few months! The words
shook him now realising he would have to dress like this for such a lengthy
duration.
“Your shorts.” Miss
Grayson snapped, indicating him to remove them and handed him a satin dressing
gown.
“But..I ...you can’t mean.” he spluttered.
“I am quickly running out of patience, or would you prefer
me to do it.” Miss Grayson said in a tone that left no room for any
misunderstanding of her intentions.
After putting on the dressing gown he quickly slipped down
his shorts, Miss Grayson held up a white satin panelled long legged girdle
against the dressing gown trying to judge his size.
“This should fit.” she said and abruptly handed it to him,
he looked at her blankly.
“What are you waiting for?” Miss Grayson said, a slight
irritation in her voice as she commanded him “put it on....now.”
He turned his back to the women and under cover of his
dressing gown he stepped into the heavy garment, struggling to pull it up.
“Oh dear there’s one of those horrible male bulges Miss
Grayson.” Mrs Dearlove sighed pointing to the offending bump between his legs.
“Oh I’m sure I can fix that.” her housekeeper answered and
without warning she grabbed the top of the boy’s new girdle and to his
astonishment pulled it down leaving his totally exposed, paralysed with a
mixture of shame and fear.
“As I suspected..... nothing
too large.” she said in a contemptuous tone as she viewed his flaccid penis
before snapping “Open your legs boy.”
Stunned, he silently and meekly obeyed her instruction and
in an instant she had pulled his member down and tucked it tightly between his
legs.
“Now close them tightly and pull up your girdle.” she
ordered, he looked down and saw there was practically no male bulge, any sign
of his manhood had disappeared.
“Much better Miss Grayson” Mrs Dearlove said as she ran her
hands over the now smooth and even satin material and slipped it between his
legs and letting her hand linger momentarily she gently rubbed his hidden bulge
which caused him to emit a slight groan. She ignored this and turned her head
to Miss Grayson and added “I would hate
to have any unsightly lumps in case Mother wishes to inspect him.”
“Perfectly understandable Madam.” Miss Grayson replied.
She released him and nodded to her housekeeper, “Carry on
Miss Grayson.”
Mrs Dearlove watched as
Miss Grayson sat him at the dressing table and showed him how to roll up
stockings and attach them to the girdle’s garters and after he had finished she
marched him back to her mistress who wrapped the corset around him and as she tugged at the laces he felt his torso
compress causing him to gasp.
“Yes it does have that effect, hold on to the bed post.” Mrs
Dearlove said as she waited for him to grab hold of the bed post before
resuming her task, he groaned once more as she tightened the stays.
“Oh don’t be such a baby.” Miss Grayson said sharply.
“Do you know William...” Mrs Dearlove said as she gave a
final jerk to the laces “this is my mother’s corset, she gave it to me when I
was about your age and was going through a tomboy phase. She insisted I wore it
day and night for weeks, she said it would instil a more feminine attitude in
me.”
She knotted the laces tightly, turned him around and
inspected her handiwork before running her hands over the nipped in waist of
her skirt and said
“And as you can see it really did work. There is nothing
like a good corset to enhance one’s femininity.”
“Now my darling boy, how many petticoats would you like to
wear?” she said.
“Petticoats?” he answered still trying to recover his
breath.
“Yes I really want you to look your best when Mother arrives.”
she said enthusiastically as Miss Grayson arranged several items on the bed.
“I... don’t ... I
mean I...”he stammered barely
comprehending what was happening.
“Yes..petticoats.” Mrs Dearlove explained as if talking to a
child “you really will have to look as feminine as possible if you are to
convince my mother your intentions are
honourable.
“I think Madeline always wore four under this particular
uniform, Madam” Miss Grayson helpfully pointed out to her mistress referring to
Mrs Dearlove previous lady’s maid.
“Yes, dear Madeline” Mrs Dearlove sighed at the mention of
the name and turning to William said “an excellent lady’s maid I trained her
myself...to a very high standard.”
William had heard the servants speak of Madeline and how
glamorous she always looked and how obedient she behaved.
“Is four acceptable to you William?” Mrs Dearlove asked the
bewildered boy who now unable to speak merely nodded. “Excellent , I think the
silk and taffeta ones Miss Grayson, the ones with the deep frilled hems.”
In a daze he felt the soft fabric being pulled up his
stockinged legs and watched them as they settled the petticoats over his now
uncomfortably reduced waist, in a matter of moments they had slipped the heavy
duchesse satin black uniform dress over his head and carefully arranged the
skirt over his petticoats. Mrs Dearlove pulled back his longish fair hair into
a knot at the back securing it with hairpins and placed a frilled lace cap on
his head to which she attached more pins to keep it in place. Meanwhile Miss
Grayson was busy slipping his arms into a starched white frilled apron which
she tied in an ornate bow at the back. The youth was still quite disorientated
as Miss Grayson applied some light make up foundation to his face.
“Pucker your lips William.” she instructed, meekly he obeyed
as she covered his lips in a delicate shade of pink lipstick, both women stood
back to view the result of their labours.
“Madam should really change as I believe your mother is due
to arrive in a few hours.
“Oh! is that the time?” Mrs Dearlove said glancing at the
clock “Yes I suppose I’d better change. Something conservative I think, you
know how Mother is Miss Grayson.”
“Yes Madam.” The housekeeper said deferentially. “Perhaps
the grey silk shantung and the pearls Madam’s mother sent from India?”
“Excellent suggestion!” Mrs Dearlove said “you fetch it and
the boy can begin undressing me.”
As they were speaking William caught a glimpse of himself in
the large ornate dressing mirror, it took several seconds for him to realise
that he
was the feminine figure in the formal maid’s uniform staring back. Still not
quite believing his eyes he moved his body ever so slightly and the petticoats
peeking out from under the dress of the girl in the mirror swayed. He was
horrified at the sight but at the same time could not take his eyes away from
it. So mesmerised by the reflection he did not notice that both women had
stopped talking.
“I see your new maid is quite taken with her new uniform
Madam.” Miss Grayson laughed.
“Yes he does seem to like it.” Mrs Dearlove agreed as she and
Miss Grayson approached him, “I find that pretty boys are no different from
girls Miss Grayson. Put them in a delightful dress and they behave just like a
girl. Isn’t that so William?”
The boy hung his head in shame, this was the most
humiliating experience of his short life. Miss Grayson began fussing with the
skirt of his uniform.
“You were correct Madam he has made the transition from
houseboy to housemaid quite easily.” she said “once he is trained properly he
will make a wonderful addition to the staff. Madam’s mother will barely
notice.”
“Oh dear just look at the time Mother will be here shortly
I’d better hurry. William you may as well begin your duties now, unzip me.”
The boy just stared at her blankly.
“Oh I see your confusion you thought you would be put to
work as a house or parlour maid. Well Miss Grayson and I have been discussing
that and I think that as you are dressed in a lady’s maid’s uniform you may as
well be trained as a lady’s maid. Of course when my friends come for morning
coffee or afternoon tea we will have you in attendance, my friends simply adore
pretty servant girls. Now do hurry up ....like a good boy.”
She turned her back to him as Miss Grayson busied herself in
her mistress’s closet retrieving her change of dress. William in his new three
inch heels minced his way across the room and began unzipping her dress. She
pulled it down over her breasts and it slid to the floor leaving her standing
in her pale blue satin slip. She stepped from the dress and looked at him
quizzically.
“Well don’t just stand there.” Mrs Dearlove said as if
speaking to a five year old “you are a maid.... pick it up and lay it on the
bed, then fetch me a steel grey slip from the tallboy, the third drawer down. Oh
dear you really are slow so I will remove my slip this time. Now run along and
try to be quick I haven’t all day.
Miss Grayson returned with a beautiful grey silk shantung
silk creation and laid it on the bed.
“Yes he is a bit slow Madam.”Miss Grayson said as she helped
her mistress with her slip “and rather ungainly but once we get him trained
properly I’m sure he will make an excellent servant girl.”
“Yes and hopefully Mother will approve.” Mrs Dearlove said
as they both watched her new male maid return with her slip.
“Approve of what
exactly my dear!” A voice boomed from the door as its owner looked at the
uniformed maid and as she sailed gracefully into the room she added “you never
told me you engaged a new lady’s maid....and such a pretty one. Come here girl
and let me have a look at you.”
“Mother! How
delightful to see you.”
William felt his knees weaken.
Saturday, April 8, 2017
Swiss Miss Sissy, Chapter 37
This is the last chapter of Swiss Miss Sissy.
That is to say, this is the last finished chapter and I'm afraid that it's likely to be the last chapter for some time. Now that I know Bambi is just busy and not dead, I have a little more hope that Swiss Miss Sissy might be completed someday, but all signs point to it being a long wait. I hope readers will find this chapter, as I do, a reasonably satisfying place to leave the characters for now. There are still plot threads left unresolved, but at least there's no big, exasperating cliffhanger. It's worth noting that this continuation is currently over five times longer than the story Bea originally began. I'll bet Bea never dreamed his story might eventually be expanded into something novel-length. I'd say Bambi has earned the right to take as long as he needs to with his writing process and is to be complimented on doing a really bang up job with this story.
by Bambi
Chapter 37: An
unexpected party. Cheryl gets to celebrate a special someone’s birthday.
“What took you so long?” Mistress asked
sternly.
“Sorry Mutter. Brigitt had made things...
difficult.” I heard Martina say. Brigitt drew a face like she had just bit in a
lemon.
“Difficult? What does that mean? Wait,
don't answer that. I'll talk to Brigitt myself later. Is Cheryl all right?”
“Oh, she is. A bit intimidated, as she should
be. But it allowed us to doll her up a bit.”
Ingrid chuckled. “Oh, I'll bet.”
“Ingrid...” Mistress admonished. “Well,
where is she?”
“Cheryl, come in dear,” Martina called.
“Showtime,” Brigitt whispered behind me.
I straightened my back, pushed my breasts
forward, puckered my lips, put my elbows in my sides and glanced at Brigitt.
She gave me a smile and opened the door for
me. With tiny steps I minced into the room. My towering 5 inch heels gently
tapped on the carpet as I stepped up to Mistress. My skirt ruffled as I
excessively wiggled my hips with each step.
Mistress was sitting in her plush chair.
She was wearing a dark blue suit with a loose skirt that fell over her knees,
but with a high split at a side that allowed me a quick view of her fabulous
thighs. Her jacket had white trimming, that complemented her beige blouse. She was wearing two
distinguished black pumps with moderate heels.
Her appearance was stern, but she couldn't
hide the smile that grew on her face as she saw me.
I took my position in front of her so she
could get a good look of my outfit. It was reminiscent of a teen's outfit.
Separate skirt and pink blouse, but clearly intended for a sissy. My white
skirt was not excessively short, but definitely not suitable for a sixteen-year-old.
Lace of my panties peeked out from below my petticoats.
My blouse was a cut almost down to my
navel, so my boobs peeked out prominently, with mostly just the white bra
covering them. Even my white waist corset was visible. Blouse was closed at my
tummy, with a broad ribbon tied in a small bow in front, and a large bow on my
back. The bra and corset were made from shiny but very uncomfortable leather, I
might add. The blouse has short sleeves, but was very puffy at the shoulders.
Gloves in the same colour covered everything from the elbow down. Bright white
stockings covered my legs, and on my feet were in white patent leather Mary
Janes with horrible 5 inch stilettos and ornamental leather bows on top.
Martina had changed my hairdo, since she
thought that my maid's haircut was unsuited for this outfit. She had untied and
retied my hair, painfully using a brush to break the shapes previously achieved
with the lacquer. She had tied it in a puffy ponytail, with curly bangs falling
down at the front and sides of my face. With a herculean effort, she had given
me a girl’s hairdo that complemented my current 'little sister' appearance. A
big pink bow kept my ponytail together. I also wore some subtle jewelry. A
bracelet around my right wrist, a chain with zirconia around my left ankle, and
a loose shiny necklace around my neck, with a pendant that said 'sissy
slave'.
Glee radiated from Mistress' face. She was
clearly very happy with my appearance. Still, she is a Mistress and I'm a
sissy, so she hid it with a stern expression. Waiting for me to show the proper
gestures of respect.
I did not bob a curtsey. It was expected, I
know, but Brigitt and Martina had decided something else was appropriate.
Mistress raised her eyebrow in surprise.
“Pretty little sissy...” I started to sing.
Ingrid started to laugh, then clap to the
rhythm of my heels. Brigitt and Martina fell in.
I pattered around in front of Mistress,
turned my back to her and bent forward, giving her a good look at my panties.
“Mincing all about...” I looked over my shoulder, winking at her.
“Here comes your Mistress...” I cupped my
hand behind my ear, like I was listening to something.
“And makes you cry out loud...” My hands
went to the sides of my cheeks as I put up a hilariously scared face.
“Out come two dildos...” I put my gloved
finger against my lips.
“She puts one in your mouth...” I put my
finger in, sucking it seductively, tasting the satin of my glove.
“And
when you are nice and quiet...” I lifted my skirt and turned around.
“She'll put one there down south.” I bent
forward, showing that I was not wearing a plug right now. Accessible. Then I
turned around again, straightened myself, then dropped a deep curtsey, not
coming up.
I was looking at the floor, but from the
edge of my vision I saw Mistress smiling. Her daughters were chattering in
Italian.
She left me in that position, and I felt
the strain of my awkward posture. “Stand up, Cheryl.”
I got up, but I didn't assume my regular
posture, but a more elaborate and girly one. I was turned about forty-five
degrees, so Mistress could see my appearance in profile. I was bent slightly
forward, so my bottom pointed upwards while my boobs were aimed forward. My
head was turned towards Mistress, lips slightly parted invitingly. It wasn't a
relaxed stance, but one I could maintain for some time.
Mistress was silent for quite a while, but
her smile never left her face.
“What is your name, dear?” She finally
asked.
“My name is Cheryl Rosatunte, Mistress.”
“Not Charles?”
“No Mistress. Charles is a man's name. I'm not a man. I'm a sissy. I love wearing skirts and heels.
I want to act completely feminine and submissive. A sissy needs to be fully
controlled by a strict Mistress, whose every wish or command she must fulfill.”
I was laying it on thick, I know. But I do
not know if it was my strong feelings for Mistress, the fact I still had no
sexual release, or that I had just been softened up by hours of inescapable
bondage, but right then I meant every single word of it.
Ingrid and Brigitt laughed. Martina
chuckled as she whispered something to Madame Directrice. Mistress just smiled,
but kept her face stern.
“Cheryl, Esther told us about your...
Situation.” The tapped the armrest of her seat. “Quite the change, I must say.”
“Yes Mistress. But I'm very happy I did. I
did not need all that male stuff. I just want to mince around in heels and cute
dresses. Look all pretty for my Mistress, serve and please her in whatever way
she wants.”
“Is that so?” She said, leaning forward,
elbows on her knees, hands folded. “Don't you think you are being very selfish,
young lady?”
That was a question I did not expect.
“Mistress, I do not understand.”
“You changed your name, your whole life, to
be my sissy. Not once did you ask me
if this is what I would want. This is
quite something for me too, my dear. Put a lot of pressure and responsibilities
on me. Never wondered if I would not want that? Instead you just went ahead and
did it, expecting me to take you in. Do you think that is reasonable? That it
is fair?”
I was shocked. She was right! I had
followed Madame Directrice's directions, but never did I stop to think if
Mistress would go along with the plan. Was Madame Directrice wrong? Did
Mistress... not love me? I turned pale.
“No Mistress... I am sorry... I just... I
mean...” I could only say. “Please don't make me leave...”
She didn't say anything. Everyone else was
silent too. Ingrid stared at her mother. Brigitt was looking at me, concern on
her face. Madame Directrice's face was a blank. Fear went through me. I had
difficulty keeping my pose.
“Ask me,” she finally said. “Ask your
Mistress nicely to be her sissy. Ask me to dress you the most ridiculously
frilly outfits, the highest heels. To fill you with plugs and dildos and whatever
I can fit in your little hole. Ask me to humiliate, bind you and punish you
whenever and where-ever I wish.” She pointed her finger at me. “And Cheryl, ask
me as a proper sissy.”
I do not know how I managed, but my stance
became even more submissive, more sissy like. I spoke in my most exquisite
voice; feminine, but sounding like an air-headed idiot.
“Mistress Christina, please make me your
sissy and make me dress in the most frilly outfits that make me weep with
humiliation. Please put me in heels that I can barely walk in, that make me
mince and patter for Mistress' pleasure. A good sissy loves the feeling of
having her sissy hole filled, so please fill me with dildos and plugs to remind
me I'm a pretty little sissy. And let me serve you, I'll be your maid, your
plaything who you can humiliate and tie up as you please. And if I displease
you in any way, I ask you to punish me severely so I can improve myself.” I
would regret this, I thought. She would do things to me, things I would loathe,
and here I was asking her for it. Begging her for it.
But I didn't care. I wanted her to be my
Mistress. If that meant I had to be her submissive, ultra-feminine sissy, then
so be it.
She looked me straight in the eyes.
“Cheryl, I told you to ask me as a proper sissy.”
I gulped. What did she mean by that? I was
dressed as one. I had performed a humiliating song and dance. Curtsied. Asked
in my most girly voice. What more did she want?
She smiled, then picked up a small box from
the table next to her, put it on her lap. “Cheryl. Do you know what today is?”
She asked.
I tried to think, but my mind was blank.
“I... I do not know Mistress.”
“Why, today is a birthday. You know whose?”
I was stunned. It certainly wasn't
Mistress’, and Brigitt's birthday was not for two more months. Martina's and
Ingrid's were even later. I saw that Madame Directrice was smiling.
“Er... Madame Directrice's, Mistress?”
She chuckled. “No silly. Yours! Today is
your birthday.” The other women smiled at me.
“Mistress? Today is not...” I started.
“Are you not Cheryl Rosatunte?” she asked
sternly.
“I am, Mistress.”
“Then today is your birthday. Esther?” she
said as she turned to Madame Directrice.
Madame Directrice took of her glasses as
she started talking. “Cheryl, I didn't use Charles' birth date in your
documentation. I kept the year, but changed the day and month. Those little
details are important when creating a completely new person. Your birth
certificate shows that you were born today, twenty years ago.” She smiled. “Today
has always been your birthday. And you never even told us, you naughty girl.
Why, I had to dig up your Swiss birth certificate just to find out!”
The women laughed. I felt terribly
confused, and that caused even more amusement.
Mistress opened the box, and took out an
item. “You know what this is, Cheryl?”
I gulped. “It's my lollipop, Mistress.”
“Indeed. The very same one you took in your
mouth the day you first came here. On my birthday. Such a great present you
were.”
She put the box away, but pointed the dildo
at me.
“On my birthday, I asked you to put it in
your mouth, and with that I accepted you as my maid. Now today, on your birthday, I want you to ask me to put it inside your mouth. If you do, I will accept you as
Cheryl Rosatunte, my sissy. Permanently. I will be a stern Mistress. Strict. I
will put you in outfits that will make you cry with humiliation. I will spank
you just to hear the musical clicking of your heels as you try to flee. I will
use dildos that make you squeal in agony and delight. And when you can take no
more, I will tie you up and do it all over again.” She smiled at me. It was a
vicious smile.
I like to think I hesitated. That male
pride shouted inside me not to continue, that there was still a way out. Here,
now. Just say no.
“Mistress, would you please put my lollipop
in my mouth. Please make me your sissy.”
“Come here, birthday girl. You know what to
do.” She held up the dildo.
I minced four steps forward, until my mouth
was right before the tip. I kept my sissy stance. Legs straight, torso bent
forward slightly. Elbows at my sides, wrists limp. I puckered my red lips.
I stuck my tongue out and ran its tip
gently along the underside. Next I closed my red lips and gave it a nice kiss.
I opened my eyes. Mistress wouldn't want me missing anything. I gave it another
kiss. I opened my mouth, so that I could suck on my lollipop. Mistress pushed
it in a little further.
And, standing there in front of my
Mistress, sucking on an obscene ivory penis, I realized that Ingrid was moving
a video camera that I hadn't noticed before. Brigit was making flash photos.
She said “Bet these will look great with her other pictures,” and everybody
laughed mockingly.
Then the daughters all started singing and
clapping to the tune of 'Happy Birthday'. “Zum geburstag viel gluck, Zum
geburstag viel gluck, Zum geburstag liebe Cheryl,
Zum geburstag......”
As I expected the dildo was being stuffed
deeper and deeper into my mouth, and I had to correct my breathing accordingly.
Mistress certainly made me work for it. The harder I sucked, the more she would
pull it back out. But I was a sissy, so I knew to continue sucking it, cheeks
moving in and out rapidly.
Mistress beamed at her daughters. “What a lovely obedient girl this little Miss Rosatunte. I say, I have never seen a sissy as cute and well behaved as her. What do you say girls, shall we make her a permanent part of our household? It is her birthday after all.”
Mistress beamed at her daughters. “What a lovely obedient girl this little Miss Rosatunte. I say, I have never seen a sissy as cute and well behaved as her. What do you say girls, shall we make her a permanent part of our household? It is her birthday after all.”
“Absolutely, Mutter!” The girls chorused. “Make her yours. Then make her do anything you want.”
Still sucking on my lollipop, which she continued to hold, she pulled me forward, towards her chair. She got up, pulled me past her and onto the chair. My knees were on the cushion, heels pointing over the edge. My arms rested on the back of the seat.
Madame Directrice produced a pair of
handcuffs, and in a quick movement snapped them shut around my wrists.
“Hold this, use both hands” Mistress said,
putting my cuffed hands up to the dildo. “Eyes front, Cheryl! No peeking. Don’t
stop sucking though.” I nodded.
“Brigitt, help me with this...,” I heard
Mistress say.
I heard the clinging of buckles. I knew
what came next.
Mistress took position behind me. Ingrid
repositioned the camera again, I was looking right as it. “Smile sissy,” she
said. “Show the camera how happy you are.”
I smiled. Smiled when I felt Mistress pull
down my panties and apply lubricant on my behind.
She reached around me grabbing my boobs,
causing me to moan.
Surprised, Mistress pinched me in the
nipple, which made me squeal.
“What is this?” She asked.
Brigitt smiled. “We replaced them with the
ones Margot uses. You know, with the nipple clamps underneath? Her fake breasts
are almost as sensitive as real ones.”
“I love them,” Mistress said as she tickled
my nipples. I would have gasped if I didn't have a dildo in my mouth.
She kissed me on my neck. “Girls, I am
happy to say that I decided to allow little miss Rosatunte to remain with us. I
will look forward to seeing her cute ass mince around the villa.”
The other women cheered and applauded. Even
Madame Directrice joined in.
“Now, shall I give the newest member of our
merry little clan her first birthday present?”
The women cheered again. Mistress placed
the tip of her strapon against my sissy-hole.
“Time make it official, my dear,” she
whispered in my ear. She turned to her daughters. “Girls?”
They sang merrily in chorus, hands clapping
“Pretty little sissy, was mincing all about.”
And Mistress entered me. It was big, but I
had learned how to relax as filled me, took be from behind. I focused on
sucking my lollipop.
“Here comes your Mistress, and makes you
cry out loud.”
She started pumping, holding and teasing my
delicate breasts through my bra.
“Out come two dildos, she puts one in your
mouth.”
She forced me to move with her motions,
still teasing my breasts. My clitty was already quite hard.
“Moan louder, sissy, let the camera know
how much you are enjoying yourself,” I heard Ingrid say.
“And when you are nice and quiet,” the
other women sang.
I felt my feet shake as Mistress pumped me.
I felt her tongue in my ear, bite my neck. All of today's pent up sexual energy
was about to find release.
“She'll put one there down south!” The
women practically shouted. And with a deep thrust, Mistress made me come.
I came on my petticoats, and even on the
chair. But no-one seemed to mind.
Mistress whispered in my ear. “You are
mine, sissy. Now and forever.”
Tears filled my eyes. Out of happiness,
lust or shame, I do not know. All of them, I suppose.
“Aww, sissy is getting all emotional.”
Brigitt mocked. “Keep sucking! No idling.”
Madame Directrice handed something to
Mistress.
“And here is your second birthday present,
Cheryl,” Mistress said as she placed the collar around me.
“Get the mirror,” Mistress spoke as she
withdrew from me. “You can take it out, my dear.” She took my lollipop from me.
Martina held up a mirror, showing me my
reflection. I saw the familiar girl looking back at me. Her lipstick was
smudged, her silly outfit ruffled, but then I noticed the metal collar.
It was a solid metal ring. The shiny metal
felt cool against my skin. There were small D-rings along its circumference,
and something that was probably a lock at my neck. But it was the ornament at
my throat that drew my eyes. It was the shape of a shield, bright blue. On that
surface was the constellation of Orion in silver. Mistress' family heraldry.
My fingers went up to the blue shield. She
had marked me as hers. I wanted to laugh, weep.
“Wear it proudly, my sweet.” Mistress said.
“Yes Mistress, I will.” I answered softly
as I stroked the small ornament. The other women burst into applause.
**********
Of course, the evening didn't end then and
there. The ladies made an informal party out of it, with me the guest of honour.
Martina brought some snacks and several bottles of expensive liquor. Ingrid
used a wet cloth to clean the chair. I turned red as a beet as she cleaned my
clitty next, laughing. Brigitt made a careful selection from their music
collection before turning on the stereo. I was not expected to do anything but
relax, look pretty and be girly.
That wasn't difficult. Mistress had pulled
me onto her lap and was kissing and fondling me, mostly teasing my newly
sensitive breasts, but also my hole and clitty. She would allow me to get
excited, but not find release, keeping me on edge again.
She was very gentle though, and my oohs,
ahhs and calls of 'ooh, Mistress!' were very genuine. Mistress was
sweet-talking to me, telling me I looked wonderful and that my performance was
excellent. This made me blush, and I blushed even more when I told her at
length how glad I was to be a sissy.
Every now and then, she would grab me by
the neck and push my head down towards her strap-on, making me suck it again
while she sipped her brandy. She had not taken it off since Brigitt had helped
her into it, but I was glad that in the meantime she had it cleaned!
The other women were drinking and laughing
while exchanging gossip in German. Occasionally Mistress joined in, but the
ladies mostly ignored me in their chatter.
Of course, once in a while I would suddenly
be the centre of attention, the three daughters grinning at me maliciously. The
ladies would then make me sing “Pretty little sissy” again, or shout comments
and criticism on my cocksucking technique. At one point Madame Directrice would
tell some funny stories from Cheryl Rosatunte's colourful past. This caused
some hilarity and the ladies to ask me what I was thinking at the time! That
certainly confused me, as I wasn't the one who made up that history. Then
again, I was Cheryl Rosatunte, and my
current past seemed much more real now than my previous one. I just stammered
something about not knowing what I was doing at the time.
“Don't worry Cheryl. We'll be telling you
what to do from now on.” Ingrid said with a grin. “You just have to look good
while doing it.”
I didn't know if the women were supposed to
be working tomorrow, but quite a few drinks were being consumed. The ladies
insisted I would join them.
“Thank you, Miss Martina, but may I have a
soda instead? Brandy is a bit too strong for me.” I never was much of an
alcohol drinker to begin with, and with all the weight I had lost I doubted I
could cope with more than a glass or two.
“Nonsense. This is a party, and we can't
let the guest of honour leave without at least getting her tipsy.”
“You can suck it from a dildo if that would
make it more palatable,” Ingrid smirked.
“Don't tease our lovely little sissy,
Ingrid” Mistress intervened. “But have a brandy, my dear. I insist. You cannot
have a party without alcohol.”
And with that settled, Martina poured me a
brandy. Mistress clinked my glass and had me sip my drink as her free hand went
over me. Brandy is an acquired taste, very sharp, but I was quite enjoying it
before I had finished my first glass. Martina smiled as she poured me another.
The conversation shifted towards the merits
of various forms of bondage, ways to discipline wayward sissies, and what would
humiliate them the most. My expert opinion was consulted several times.
“Margot showed me these,” Brigitt said,
producing a pair of metal rings “They are perfect for Cheryl here. Much more
handy that handcuffs. More fashionable too.”
“How so?” Madame Directrice asked.
“Mutter, may I borrow Cheryl for a moment?
Thank you. Come here, girl.” I minced over to Brigitt, flush with a alcohol and
anxiety.
“Hold out your hands, sissy. Very good. Now
ladies, to open them you need a key, and then just close them around the wrists
of our unfortunate damsel-in-distress.” Brigitt winked at me maliciously, then
turned towards the others.
“Using them is very simple,” Brigitt told
them. “They may look like ordinary cuffs, but see these decorations?” Brigitt
made me extend hands so the other women could clearly see the bracelets around
my writs.
“These are actually snap-locks. Push them
against one another...” She held my wrists and pushed the cuffs against each
other. I heard a click.
“...And they will snap shut, binding our
little Cheryl here. Go ahead sissy, pull them apart.” She let go of my wrists,
which were crossed in front of me. I tried to pull my arms apart, but the cuffs
resisted. I pulled harder, but aside from hearing some metallic sounds, nothing
happened.
“You do not need a key to open them, either.
Just push both these two buttons on both cuffs.” She looked right at me.
“Something quite impossible for our naughty little sissy to do herself.”
She used thumb and index finger of both
hands to push the buttons. With another click, my wrists came loose.
“Seems that little Cheryl will have to be
careful not to accidentally bind herself,” Ingrid mocked.
“Accidentally? I fear sissy here will start
to chain herself up on purpose. Don't you know girls like her love that sort of
thing?” Martina countered. They all laughed.
“Anyway,” Brigitt continued. “You see there
are several such locks around their circumferences, and will fix in any
orientation. For example...” She grabbed my arms and turned me around, causing
me to give a startled shriek. She pulled my wrists behind me crosswise and
snapped them together. Brigitt's audience mumbled in approval.
“But you could also connect them like
this...” She pulled my wrists apart and then my arms parallel, clicking the
undersides of the cuffs against one another. My arms were now locked behind me
like in an armbinder.
“Or like this...” I resigned myself with
Brigitt binding me again. This time with lower arms parallel, in opposite
direction to one another, so my hands were halfway up my back.
“Or any way you want, really.” She finally
said.
Without bothering to untie me, she tugged
my shoulders and twirled me around. I squealed as I lost my balance and tipped
over, but Brigitt put her arm around my waist and pulled me against her.
“Applause for my lovely assistant, little
miss Cheryl Rosatunte,” Brigitt said smiling as she pulled me upright. The
other ladies clapped her hands and cheered.
She let go of me and said to me “Thank your
audience, girl.”
Mistress observed me closely. I knew what
was expected of me.
I bobbed a curtsey, which is very difficult
with your arms tied behind you, let me assure you. “Thank you all for you kind
applause. It was my pleasure to perform for you,” I said.
Mistress smiled. “You are very welcome, my
dear. Come sit with me.” She patted her lap.
The party continued much as it had
already. With her daughters chatting
amongst themselves, and Mistress fondling and caressing me. Still with my arms
behind tied behind my back, though.
I was getting quite tipsy as Mistress fed
me the last of my brandy. And I was not the only one. Mistress had some quite
some herself, and for her the evening was coming to an end.
“Girls,” Mistress said, “It is late. Cheryl
and I will be retiring for the night.”
“Just retiring?” Brigitt teased.
“Watch your tongue, my dear.” Her voice was
authoritarian, but her smile spoke volumes. “Feel free to continue as long as
you want though. Good night.”
“Good night Mutter,” Martina said, then
giggled. “I hope you – ahem - sleep
well, Cheryl.” Ingrid and Brigitt laughed, then wished us good night too.
I performed a curtsey for the ladies, the
combination of alcohol, heels and bonds making it less than perfect. They found
that very amusing.
“Looks like little miss Rosatunte is a bit
tipsy. I bet she'll trip before she's up the stairs.” Ingrid gibed.
“She will most definitely not,” Mistress
said sternly, to both me and Ingrid. She produced a leash. “Cheryl is a proper
sissy, and she will not disgrace me with such clumsiness. Isn't that right,
Cheryl?”
“Yes, Mistress,” I said with pride,
straightening myself into a prim and proper posture. As much as possible in my
bonds, anyway. How dare Ingrid assume I would disappoint Mistress like that?
Did she think that little of me? I assume the alcohol had somehow made me
forget I was a sissy, dressed in a demeaning outfit, who had been the centre of
ridicule for much of the evening.
Mistress attached the leash to my new
collar and gave it a tug. I had some trouble with my balance, but managed to
follow her lead submissively.
“Very well. We are off. Don't stay too
long, dears. It is almost midnight,” Mistress said as she guided me towards the
door.
“Wait, that means it is still Cheryl's
birthday,” Martina said. “Let's give our Swiss miss sissy a proper Swiss
goodbye, ladies.”
Martina, Ingrid, Brigitt and Madame
Directrice joined in song and clapping.
“Zum
geburstag viel gluck, Zum geburstag viel gluck, Zum geburstag liebe Cheryl, Zum
geburstag......”
They were still singing as Mistress led me
out of the room and up the stairs towards her room.
************
I followed submissively – I could do little
else – as Mistress pulled my leash and guided me into her room. She sat me down
on her bed and unclipped the leash. She didn't unlock my cuffs, though.
She drifted around the room slowly
undressing. First her jacket, then her skirt (not easy with the strapon still
underneath). Next came her blouse.
“Cheryl, would you help me with my bra? Oh
right, never mind. You are all tied up at the moment, aren't you?” She chuckled.
Guess that joke never got old.
“Yes Mistress, it seems I am. My apologies.
But if you would untie me...” I tried.
“That can wait,” she said. “Don't worry, I
do not really need your help anyway.” She unhooked her bra. “No peeking, my
dear. Close your eyes.”
I did. I heard her strip to her undies,
taking the strapon off as I heard the harness thud as she dropped it on her
dresser. Then she took of her panties, I am sure. I may then have accidentally
blinked.
“Cheryl!
If I see you peeking one more time, you will wear a blindfold until
morning! Understand, naughty girl?”
She accepted my hasty but elaborate
apology.
She moved about the room. Picking a piece
of clothing from one dresser, than another one from a closet. She took her time
putting them on, and I felt like the very air was being charged.
When she was done, I heard her take place
behind her vanity mirror, taking off her jewelry and letting her hair loose.
With a brush she stroked it again and again, until I heard her fix it in place
with what I assumed were hair clips.
She wiped her face, probably removing her
make-up, but I also heard her touch it up here and there.
“You may open your eyes, honey.” She
finally said.
It was amazing to see a woman over forty
with such a body. Lean, but perfectly rounded in the right places. Long hair
falling over her right shoulder. Nothing
artificial about her. Truly a piece of art only nature itself can make.
She had framed that piece of art with a
black bra and panties, which I saw were made of leather. Her waist was inside a
matching corset, red lining giving striking contrast to the black satin, from
which suspender straps held up stockings. Black patent leather pumps with four
inch heels completed the ensemble.
I felt tongue tied, I couldn't help saying
something. “You are beautiful, Mistress,” was the best I could come up with.
“Thank you, my dear,” she said with a warm
smile. “Now, let's get that silly jacket and skirt off you, shall we? Stand
up.”
I got on my heels, and she untied the small
bow at my tummy. She pulled slowly on the silk until the knot came undone. She
then reached around me to untie the larger bow at my back, looking deep into my
eyes as she did. When the other knot was loose, she pulled back on the ribbons
that Martina had wrapped around and around to make up the bows. Like silk
serpents they twisted around my waist until they were off and Mistress held
them up like some banner before letting them flutter to the ground.
She undid my jacket's only button, opening
it to the sides and from my shoulders. I was still cuffed, so my arms were
still in the sleeves, but she left it at that. I sighed as she stroked the
nipples of my fake boobs.
“You are as sensitive as a real girl,
Cheryl” she simply said.
My mind must have melted under her touch.
“Yes, Christina,” I replied inadvertently. I gasped as I realized what I had
just said.
She gave me a warning look. Stern, but not
unkind. She put her hand below my chin and tilted it back, forcing me to look
right in her eyes “Mistress,” she said. “I am your Mistress, Cheryl. Forever
and always. And you will address me as such. However, this is a special evening
and you deserve the right to speak my given name. So just for tonight you may
call me Mistress Christina.”
She sniggered. “But how should I call you
now? Little miss Rosatunte?” She reached around me to unzip my skirt and pulled
it down.
“Cheryl is fine, Mistress Christina.” I
said sighing as I felt her hands running down my legs.
“Not tonight, my dear.” She gently turned
me around, blowing softly in my ear. “You'd call a maid by her first name only.
But today I accepted you as a true sissy in my household. You should cherish
that position. Rejoice in your title. Tonight I will call you 'sissy Cheryl'.” She put a lot of
emphasis on the first word.
I couldn't quite follow that logic, and I
wasn't sure if she was mocking me. As
far as I was concerned 'sissy' is not a compliment. But I wasn't about to
argue.
She finally unlocked my cuffs, but held my
arms tight for a moment. Then she pulled the jacket off entirely. She unwrapped
the pink bow around my ponytail and then fluffed my loose hairdo a bit. She
gently turned me around.
Her bright eyes scanned me from top to
bottom, stopping at my bra, panties and heels. She smiled.
“All in white. Just like out first night
together, no?” she wiped a loose lock of hair out of my face. “Only, you are no
longer a virgin. I already took your cherry.”
I blushed. “Yes, Mistress Christina. I am
sorry, but Miss Brigitt insisted on it.”
“Don't worry, my dear. You look good in
white. Besides, only men are obsessed with virgins. Women like their partners
to have some experience. Sissies too.”
She stepped closer. She put her hands on my
breasts, stroking them. I felt the lightest touch transmit through the material
to my over-sensitive real ones. I gasped. I desperately wanted to put my hands
on her, but kept them at my sides. She would determine when I was to touch her.
“You have gained some experience by now,
haven't you, sissy Cheryl?”
“Yes, Mistress Christina. You have trained
me well, and I have had a lot of practice.” That was true, up to a point. In
another life I had my fair share of sexual encounters, but nothing compared to
what has happened the last few months. At this rate, I would have had more sex
as a girl than I could have ever hoped to have as a man before the year was
out. I didn't dare linger on the fact that nowadays I was always the receiving
party.
“Time to show me what you have learned,”
she spoke as she sat me down on the bed, then walked over to the dresser to
pick up the strapon.
“Lay down on the bed, sissy Cheryl. Your Mistress is going to give you the ride of your
life,” she said as she fastened the straps of the harness around her.
“Shouldn't I take my heels off first, Mistress
Christina?” I said hesitantly.
“Of course not, silly girl.” She said
without looking up. “I'm not taking mine off either. Sex is better with heels
on. It makes women feel more sexy, taller and empowered. It makes sissies more
sexy too, hobbled and vulnerable. Now do as I say.” She finished adjusting the
strapon.
I lay down on my back, and Mistress
Christina sat down next to me. Her right hand stroking my breasts through my
bra, then running down past my corset and to my clitty. I gasped.
“Do you want me to take my clothes off,
Mistress Christina?” I said.
“No, sissy
Cheryl. I want you to kiss me.” She said as she put her tongue in my mouth. I
received it with a moan as I felt her hands dance over my body.
*********
I was already awake when the sun came up. I
had slept, for sure. I was very tired afterwards. So was Mistress, who was
still asleep, her arm around my naked body. I had lost most of my undies during
the night. I only wore my heels and stockings now. So did Mistress, who had
even taken the strapon off.
A ray of sunshine sneaked between the
curtains and fell on the floor, illuminating the vibrator we had used only
hours before. Other items were there as
well. A blindfold. Crop. Ballgag. Everything that was in the nightstand had
found its way to the floor eventually. Through me, mostly.
When she was done, Mistress was sweating.
She had given it her all for hours. One moment making me moan and squeal with
whatever she was holding, the next having me make her groan and grunt as I
worked furiously to please her.
Now do not get me wrong, there was no
equality. She gave and I received. Everything I wanted to give to her, she took from me instead. When I teased her
breasts, it was with her hands around my wrists holding them there. When I licked
her, she was pushing my head down forcefully and slapping me hard if my tongue
slackened. I entered her only because she
sat her crotch down on me.
She had me dancing to her tune, however. I
sweet talked, squealed, moved, kicked my legs, and blushed just the way she
liked it, brooking no reluctance or failing. She was... forceful... every time
she found me wanting, occasionally locking my cuffs and the crop was not for
show. Nevertheless, she had made me come. Several times even. Some of the cum
found its way back into my mouth or hole.
Yes, she pulled my strings with the grace
and skill of a master puppeteer performing with a pretty doll. Not because she simply could or to assert her
dominance over me, but to make me feel
it. She searched and probed me for the act that would make me moan and weep
with embarrassed delight. I got a glimpse of the joy and pleasure of my
humiliation and submission, the feelings of male ego, broken pride and dread
silenced for the briefest of moments.
Mistress mumbled something as I moved her
hand away and got up. I blushed as I felt a sting of embarrassment as I saw all
the female sex toys that I both loved and loathed and had perhaps paid for
myself.
I was already halfway dressed when she woke
up. “Cheryl?” she said groggily.
I bobbed a curtsy. “Good morning,
Mistress,” I said properly, not speaking her name. Perhaps I was her lover mere
hours ago, but with the sunrise I was her maid again. I had to play the part.
“I am sorry to awaken you, but I need to hurry, as it appears I'm already late
for my shift. And it seems you have missed breakfast. Would you like me to ask
Frau Seiler to bring some to your room?” I asked perkily.
She sat upright, smiling contentedly. “That
will not be necessary. I'll just grab a big lunch at noon.” She hopped her feet
from the bed and onto the floor. “And there is no rush. I'm giving you this
morning off. Just make sure you are ready to help Frau Seiler at lunchtime.”
“Thank you, Mistress. But I still need to
shower, put on my makeup and fix my hair. And I will need some time to put on
an outfit for my shift. I fear Miss Brigitt will have me try various frilly
dresses before she finds one that is appropriate. I'll be glad if I'm actually
ready at lunchtime.”
“What a wonderfully considerate sissy you
are,” she said with a happy smile. “I am so glad you offered yourself to me.
Your whole life no less...” She beamed “Now I have you all to myself.”
“Thank you, Mistress,” I said as I bobbed a
curtsey. But my smile was uneasy. That last remark had troubled me.
Mistress saw my broken smile. “What is the
matter, my dear?” she asked concerned.
“That is not quite true, is it Mistress?” I
said with a saddened voice. “Madame Directrice told me about Miss Rosenberg.
About your arrangement. She will come for me soon, won't she?”
Mistress walked up to me, put her hands
around me and drew my head against her shoulder. She kissed me on my forehead.
“Yes,” She simply said. She didn't apologise- that was not her way- but I could
feel her regret.
We stood there for a moment, until I just
nodded. “If that is what it takes...” I uttered, fiddling with the ornament on
my collar. I detached from her embrace. Looked her in the eyes, and smiled.
My heels clicked as I stepped back. I
bobbed a deep curtsey. “May I be excused, Mistress?”
She gave the slightest of nods. I felt her
gaze follow me as I left the room.