As I was posting the first one yesterday, I realized I'd written one a month ago already. This one is slightly different, slightly longer, slightly more telling not showing. Neither are quire perfect, but I'd like to know which one you prefer.
A place to collect the thoughts and experiences of heterosexual male cross dressers and transvestites. I try not to be judgemental - hell I was forty-something before I liked myself. I WILL plug the page where I have books to sell - but there are 'freebies' there as well so money isn't a big deal. I'm ancient - so have many years behind me. With any luck I've learned some sense about myself and the subject of transvestism. Have no problem in learning more. Want to, as a matter of fact.
Thursday, February 25, 2016
Wednesday, February 24, 2016
Scenes from family life
A fragment that I have failed to keep really short, depicting a scene from (some) family life. It will probably push some wrong buttons with some folks, as the hero is joined by his father, but what can we do? The end may seem a bit forced, but I was anxious to wrap it up quickly.
Monday, February 15, 2016
Swiss Miss Sissy, Chapter 22
by Bambi
Chapter 22: What price victory? A sissy cannot make an
omelet without breaking a few eggs...
With
Suzy pacified there was no more dissent and things went back to normal,
relatively speaking, settling into something of a routine. Classes in the
morning and much of the afternoon, followed by free time that we spent doing
homework or just relax a bit. And planning and executing our assignments, of
course.
I
did my best to be the epitome of submissive ultra-femininity to impress my
teachers and score merits. It was hard work as they were not easy to please.
Every day I would be on the receiving end of three or four disciplinary
measures.
Each
morning I experienced the utter terror of watching the minotaur with the
gargantuan paddle step into my room for inspection. Occasionally she was
completely satisfied and I'd live to mince another day. Sometimes she would
find a flaw in my appearance and she would place me on all fours. As she'd
spank me I was to kick and squeal and wiggle as she had come to expect of me.
Most
trouble I got was because of my classmates. I kept my room in good order, but
every now and then my tutor would find a flaw that one of them must have
planted there. I regularly checked the contents of my room to prevent these
treacherous actions. Occasionally I was lucky and found something that was
missing or did not belong there, which I would duly report to Miss Ochsenhorn
during inspection. Otherwise she would immediately go to my closet, drawer or bed
to point out what I had missed. A paddling would then follow.
But
that was not the only way they crossed me. None of my classmates told me one of
my seams was crooked, but one of them had reported me to Big Sister, as Frau
Ochsenhorn merrily pointed out before spanking me. Must have been Tiffany!
And
to add insult to injury, these spanking sessions forced me to spend merits at
an alarming rate. I had to go above and beyond my best behaviour just to keep
my TV privileges.
But
I did not let my fellow novices get away with this, of course. I managed to
steal some panties from Alice's room, reported Tiffany for making doodles
during class and told Big Sister of Suzy's rude gesture. Gaining merits while
getting even on my treacherous classmates? Score!
I
tried to spare Daniëlle as best I could, but sometimes I was forced to involve
her as well. So regrettably I had to tell Big Sister that she'd clearly
forgotten to shave her legs that morning. Of course, everyone could see
that. She'd eventually be reported anyway. Now her friend would get a merit out
of it, at least. I'm sure she would have done the same.
With
all this going on, nobody trusted anyone else anymore. Did someone really go to
the toilet, or did she sneak out on some foul purpose? Should I perhaps follow
her? Would someone else take advantage of my absence to slip into my room? So
it was no wonder people were being sassy, spiteful or mean with one another.
Arguments were a frequent occurrence.
In
between all this even my relationship with Daniëlle had been tainted. During
the fight that Suzy had stirred up, we both had said things that could never be
taken back completely. The fact she went behind my back to report a smudge on
my dress did not help either.
Still,
despite these challenges our deeper bond remained impregnable. She didn't offer
me whiskey a second time, but that was fine. It was enough that she had trusted
me with a secret and, so help me, I would keep it safe for her. So when I
received the assignment 'give away a secret of Daniëlle’s to earn three
merits', I tore the paper in pieces and threw them away. The only time I ever
did that.
Speaking
of time, I kind of lost track how long I've been down here, nor did I have any
idea how much longer this 'novice' phase would last. Was it days? Weeks? The
teachers wouldn't tell us. 'Don't you worry your pretty little mind on that,
girl. Just focus on your studies,' they'd say. When I tried to press the issue,
all I got was a flogging for talking back.
So
I just did as I was told. Be a good sissy, do my homework and perform my
assignments for extra credit.
Every
day we had classes in household chores, which we then put into practice
cleaning the novice wing. Right now we were assigned the common area. I was
dusting while the other girls had their own chores.
“Hey,
I just cleaned that!” Tiffany called out.
“What?”
I replied, holding the duster with which I swiped the furniture.
“I
just wiped the floor,” she said while holding a broomstick. “You're getting
dust all over it.”
“Then
wipe it again. I need to clean this,” I said, pointing at the windowsill of the
false window.
“Your
dust, your responsibility. Wipe it yourself.”
“You
should've waited until I was done. Your mistake, so you clean it.”
“Would
the two of you just be quiet?”
“Oh,
hi, Daniëlle, done with the tables already?” Tiffany snarked “Whoopsy, you've
missed a spot. Guess not.”
“Hey,
don't you talk to her like that, fuzzyfrocks!” I cried.
“Miss
Big Sister?! They are fighting again!”
“Eat
me, Alice!”
“...And
Daniëlle is having a potty mouth!”
A
loud beep came from a speaker. Then a voice. “Silence, all of you! Stand at
attention! Good... Now then, it seems there is some animosity between you
girls. You need to learn to work together. I have just the thing. Wait right there,
don't move.”
A
moment later several tutors entered the lounge, who rounded us up and placed us
in a line.
We
were standing at attention, but I couldn't suppress the shudder when they took
out several chains and shackles.
My
tutor stood in front of me, and I couldn't suppress a soft yelp when she
grabbed my right hand and locked a metal cuff around it. Another tutor behind
me snapped another shut around my right ankle.
To
my surprise, Frau Ochsenhorn did not grab my other hand. She took Tiffany's left
hand instead.
“Huh?”
She said as the ogre snapped the cuff shut around her wrist. The other tutor
bound her left ankle. Our arms and legs were now connected by chains hardly a
foot long. The process was repeated between Daniëlle and Alice. Only Suzy was
spared, who was now, ironically, the least bound sissy of our miserable little
group.
“Now
you will have to work together in your chores,” the ogre growled. “I expect
this place to be spotless before two. So get to it, girls.”
The
tutors left without another word, leaving us standing there rather baffled.
Daniëlle
broke the silence. “...How are we supposed to work like this?” He raised her
arm to look at the cuff.
“Hey,
don't pull,” Alice shouted, wobbly in her heels in the best of times.
Tiffany
stated the rather obvious. “We'll have to move together. Simultaneously.”
“Okay...”
I said hesitantly. “How about three steps forward, as practice? Left, right,
left.”
“Fine,”
Tiffany replied. “On three. One... Two... Three!”
Simultaneously,
we moved our feet. Left first, as agreed. Unfortunately, the flaw in our plan
became immediately apparent. Her left ankle was chained to my stationary right
one...
“Wha...?”
Tiffany called out as the taut chain tripped her.
She
tried to compensate, but by pulling on my wrist she drew me off-balance
instead. “Wait, no!” I cried.
With
two simultaneous yelps, Tiffany and I fell down. She hit the ground first, and
I fell on top of her.
“Gah!...Oompfh!...Ugh,
get of me, you stupid sissy!” I heard Tiffany say.
Two
loud thumps followed by a string of recriminations back and forth informed me
that Daniëlle and Alice had fared little better. I don't know how this was
supposed to sooth the animosity between us. If anything, it had the opposite
effect.
After
mucking about for a while, which included several other close encounters with
the floor, we managed to develop a system. Short and slow steps, with one of
the sissies calling left or right foot, while holding hands. It worked well.
Occasionally we even managed to cross the room before tripping...
Still,
if you think mincing is a slow process, try it while being tied to someone
else... Not to mention trying to clean a room in this state. Suffice to say, we
were nowhere done when the clock struck two.
“I
am very disappointed with you girls,” Frau Ochsenhorn boomed as she
walked behind a row of very timid sissies. “I expected more from you. Much
more. Surely a lesson in teamwork would let you rise above your petty
differences. Clearly I was wrong. You are as worthless as you are pitiful.”
She
sighed deeply. “So be it. If working together towards a common goal does not
motivate you, then perhaps I should make you responsible for each other's
punishment.”
She
stepped behind me. Her loud voice blared in my ears. “Tell me Cheryl, did
Tiffany perform her duties admirably? Did she work as a valuable member of a
team?”
I
did not need long to think about that. “No Miss,” I said. “Working with her was
a nightmare. She always started on the wrong foot, even when I told her 'My
left'. And she couldn't hold the dustpan properly, causing me to spill most of
it. And if she had just wiped the floor
we wouldn't have needed that lesson in teamwork in the first place!”
“Do
you concur, Tiffany?” my tutor asked.
“No
Miss!” Tiffany shouted. “It was all her fault. Her instructions were
nonsensical, and she couldn't keep tempo. And if she just held the duster like
I told her to, she wouldn't have spilled so much of it. But most of all, she
wasn't working as a team player when she got dust on my clean floor!”
“I
see. So you both think your partner should be punished then?”
“Yes!”
we said in unison.
“Very
well. I just so happen to have a crop here. How many strikes?”
“Twenty!”
I called. “Fifteen!” Tiffany cried.
“Let's
make it five instead, but no spending merits. Also, I will not administer the
punishment. You will.”
“Miss?”
I asked confused.
One
of the other tutors stepped in front of me, and with a small key unlocked my
wrist cuff, then Tiffany's. Then she removed the ankle chain binding us.
Frau
Ochsenhorn stepped up before us, holding out the crop.
“You
go first, Cheryl. Take it. Don't be shy, girl. You said Tiffany should be
punished, didn't you?”
With
curious reluctance I took hold of the handle. It was no bigger than the riding
crop I had held during my horse ride with Martina, but is seemed heavier,
although that may have been an illusion. A metaphor of the sudden weight of
responsibility thrust upon me.
“Two
step forward, Tiffany. Now, little girl! Good. Bend forward. More... Hold it
like that. Raise your skirt. Go stand over here, Cheryl.”
I
did as I was told, standing at Tiffany's left, slightly behind her, the crop in
my right hand.
“Grab
the handle tight, Cheryl. Stretch out your arm. That's it. Now pull it back.
Excellent. Wait for my command...”
I
don't know who was more nervous: Tiffany or me.
“One!”
my tutor called.
I
hesitated.
“I
said: one!” Frau Ochsenhorn called impatiently.
I
guess I swung my arm, as I saw the crop move, but I did not feel it. In slow
motion I saw the black stick swing by and strike Tiffany's panty-clad behind,
on her right butt-cheek.
I
heard Tiffany grunt, an uncomfortable shiver running down her legs.
“Two!”
the tutor called.
I
reacted more quickly this time, and was more aware of swinging the crop. I hit
her panties dead centre.
I
didn't expect the sudden cuff around my ear. It didn't really hurt, but it
certainly startled me. I almost dropped the crop in dismay.
I
looked at Frau Ochsenhorn, who had slapped me. Her frown was very dark. “Stop
tickling her, Cheryl. This is supposed to be a punishment. Let her feel
it. Now, start again.”
I
mumbled a half-hearted 'Yes, Miss', then readied myself again, bracing myself
for added power.
“One!”
my tutor growled.
I
put all my strength behind that swing. I heard a loud 'twack', followed by a
pained yelp.
“Better.
Two!”
I
swung again, hitting her on her bare tight. I could see the crop left a reddish
imprint on her leg. Tiffany grunted.
“Three!”
Tiffany
wobbled in her heels as I struck her. I heard her gasp loudly.
“Four!”
Tiffany
started to sob.
“Five!
Well, done Cheryl. Stand straight, Tiffany. It's your turn.”
Tiffany
glanced at me as we exchanged places. Her eyes were moist and I could see tears
on her cheeks. But through the tears her eyes beamed fire at me.
“Bend
over, Cheryl. Raise your skirt. Ready, Tiffany?
“Oh,
yeah...” she said menacingly.
“Good...
One!”
The
crop struck me like a bolt of lightning. I yelped like a puppy.
“Nice...
Two!”
And
another one, fire spreading from my behind. If I had initially been reluctant
to hit Tiffany, she clearly did not have the same problem.
“Three!”
“Gah!”
I cried. I tried to keep it in, trying not to give her the satisfaction, but I
failed.
“Four!”
Now
I really was crying. I felt dizzy in my head and unsteady on my heels.
“Five!
Excellent. Get up, Cheryl, and get back in line. You too, Tiffany. Hurry now.”
I
stumbled back into line. My tutor took the crop and continued to Daniëlle and
Alice, who were being unchained as well. Now it was their turn.
I
glanced at Tiffany and she looked back. Silently we exchanged insults and
curses. You'll pay for this, I thought, as I was sure she thought as well.
*********************
That
evening I was sitting behind my vanity mirror in my room. I uncomfortably
shifted my weight from one butt-cheek to the next, my behind still sore from
Tiffany's pummelling.
In
front of me was an envelope with my latest assignment. I ripped it open and
took out the letter inside.
'For
one merit,' it read, 'select one of the following outfits and the classmate
that should wear it.'
I
had three options. One was the uniform that I had arrived in, with the plain
dress and low heels. Simple, comfortable and not too humiliating.
The
next one looked rather like the one I was wearing now. With poofy shoulders and
a flaring skirt held up by petticoats. The accompanying mary-janes were a
respectable three-and-a-half inch. A silly garment in any other setting, but
down here it was rather ordinary.
The
third one was clearly fetish wear, vaguely reminiscent of a baby dress, but
with an empire waist and showing lots of cleavage. The skirt hardly covered the
top of the ruffled panties. A bonnet and frilly ankle socks were also listed.
The accompanying heels were a towering 4.5 inch with T-strap. I wouldn't want
to be caught dead wearing that monstrosity.
But
what really set this last one apart were the collar and leash, fluffy
handcuffs, pacifier gag and ankle chain that accompanied the outfit. Anyone
wearing this would have a really bad day.
I
looked at the first outfit. Perhaps I should give it to Daniëlle, I thought.
She had looked quite pale after Alice was done with her, and perhaps a rather
more comfortable and modest outfit would do her some good. She would still hate
it, of course, but the lower heels alone would be beneficial.
I
quickly rejected it, though. What I really wanted was to get back at Tiffany,
and now I had the perfect opportunity.
I
walked over to the display at the side of my bed and presses the green button.
“Yes,
Cheryl?” The voice spoke.
“Hello
Miss. For my assignment I would like to select the third outfit for Tiffany,” I
said with wicked glee.
“Very
good. This earns you one merit.”
“Thank
you, Miss.”
“You’re
welcome. Don't forget, lights out in thirty minutes. Tomorrow, you have a long
day ahead of you.”
Not
as long as Tiffany, I thought.
*******************
The
next morning, after a shower cold enough to drive away my fatigue, at least for
a moment, my tutor entered my room.
“Miss?”
I asked startled. “Is it inspection time already?”
“Of
course not, silly girl. I just came by to bring you today's outfit.”
Self-consciously
I pulled my bathrobe closer to my otherwise naked body. “Thank you, Miss. But I
already prepared my assigned uniform yesterday.”
“There
has been a change of plans. You'll wear this instead.” She carried the box she
was holding over to my bed. Whistling a catchy tune, she started to unpack it.
I
watched with curiosity as she laid out the items, then it turned to dread.
“So,
what do you think?” my tutor asked.
I
gulped. “That's the outfit I selected yesterday...” I said with a trembling
voice.
“Really?
You already prepared this outfit?” She gave a low chuckle. “What a coincidence.
Well, let’s get you strapped in then.”
I
stepped back. “No, no, no. You don't understand! I selected this outfit for Tiffany.
For my latest assignment!”
She
looked at me with one eyebrow raised. The she simply shrugged. “I see. Well
then maybe one of your classmates selected this outfit for you, as part
of her assignment.”
“Wha...
What?” I stammered.
“Come
now, silly girl. You must have considered the possibility that someone else
would have the same assignments as you? Someone who doesn't like you very much,
for example.”
“Tiffany!?”
“Could
be. Who knows? But it's a pity, really. You could have selected another outfit.
You know, as a sort of peace offering. Make her life a bit easier so that she
would stop holding a grudge against you. Then maybe you wouldn't have to wear
this outfit. On the plus side: now you'll be an adorable little sissy baby!
With your cute tiny dress, baby bonnet, towering heels and sissy bondage! What
fun!”
My
mouth fell open, but no sound came out of it.
“Just
remember, don't add the bonds before you are fully prepared and dressed.” Frau
Ochsenhorn continued. “The handcuffs go behind your back, so save them for
last.”
I
was dumbfounded. I actually had to tie myself up?
My
tutor turned towards the door. “I'll be back in half an hour for inspection.
I'll expect you to stand at attention in the centre of the room while you wait
for me. Try not to disappoint, because I'll be bringing my paddle and today I
got a rattlin' for a paddlin'. Tschuss, honey-bunny.”
With
a smile she left the room, leaving me alone with the silk monstrosity.
I
stood there silently as I looked at my outfit, but my mind was racing. Part of
it was developing elaborate but highly unlikely escape plans that could enact
in the next five minutes. Another idea was to burst into Daniëlle room, grab
her liquor bottle and gulp it all down. I even had the thought to simply refuse
wearing it and proclaiming loudly that they couldn't make me, which was
probably the most unrealistic idea of them all.
I
went over to my vanity table. I had wasted five minutes already. I loathed that
outfit, but feared the ogres paddle more. I started applying makeup, making it
bright and obvious. With an outfit like that, subtlety would be out of place.
The
clock was ticking, so had to rush as I added bright blush, several layers of
eye shadow and bright red lipstick. Styling my platinum blonde curls was even
trickier, and I needed lotion to vitalise it, then a cream-gel to strengthen
the curls.
After
a quick look in the mirror, I was satisfied and rushed over to my bed, dropping
the bathrobe while I moved.
I
picked up my panties first. It had an over-abundance of frills, bows and lace,
but otherwise was not out of the ordinary. I stepped into them and pulled them
up, feeling the smooth and expensive silk on my skin. At least it feels nice, I
thought.
The
bra was next. It matched the panties in every single way. Comfortable, but
covered in frills that had no function but to make the wearer look excessively
girly.
I
picked up final piece of underwear, holding it up for a good look. It was a
tiny waist corset, but with extensive boning along the circumference. It didn't
have lacing or even buckles at the front, only sturdy straps that hinted when
placed it would not be easy to remove.
I
wrapped the corset around me and closed the straps in front. I pulled them
tight as I hold my breath. I kept pulling even when it became rather
uncomfortable, since I had learned that Frau Ochsenhorn had a particular
dislike for loose corsets.
I
put on the petticoats before I turned to the dress. As I held it up, I noticed
just how ridiculously short it was. I hesitated, and watched at the clock as if
there I could find an excuse not to put it on. The display offered no
salvation, merely creeping closer to seven AM. I took a breath as deep as my
corset allowed me, and slipped it over my head, careful not to disturb my curly
hair.
I
stood in front of the vanity mirror to check my dress, fixing a few twists and
folds. I gave a good look to the girl wearing the ridiculous dress. My goodness,
it was so short! The widely flaring skirt just covered the top of my panties.
Now I also understood the elaborate embellishments of my undies, since the
frills of the hem of the skirt matched my panties perfectly. Likewise, I
noticed how my dress complemented my bra as it peeked through the window of my
wide cleavage. Most of the dress' fabric seemed to have gone into the
shoulders, which were poofy to the point of parody.
I
zipped up my dress at the back, but also needed to buckle up a strap to close
it completely. This obviously wasn't quite a locking outfit, but it sure came
close.
I
had some trouble with the bonnet. The few times I've worn one, Miss Rosenberg's
maids had dressed me. Twice did it fall over my eyes after putting it on (which
evoked some nasty memories of my week with Miss Rosenberg) before I got it
right and tied it below my chin with a pretty bow.
I
sat down on the bed as I grabbed the frilly ankle socks. With these I would not
have to worry about crooked seams, I thought as I slipped them on.
Next
came the shoes with the towering heels. I held them up before me, looking at
the long stilettos. A girl could strike oil by walking those into some Arabian
desert, I thought.
I
slipped one over my right foot, careful not to put any weight on it, and closed
the secure T-strap that locked my foot in. Then I put on the other one.
Still
sitting on the bed, I turned to the final items that were part of the garment
proper: the gloves. Curiously, there were actually two pairs of gloves. One was
made of silk with lots of frills at the wrist, which kind of reminded me of the
ankle socks. The second pair was shorter, made from pristine white patent
leather much like my heels. Thin but rigid, these had to be worn over the first
pair. I moved my fingers in their gloves, which the leather tried to resist. I
also noticed how the material effectively had numbed the sensitivity of my
fingertips.
Finally
finished with the outfit itself, I looked at the remaining items. I may have
disliked the dress, but the sight of the bonds on my bed was positively
nauseating.
I
swallowed hard. Tried to think positive thoughts. I had worn worse when I
visited Miss Margot, right? That did not make me feel any better...
I
picked up the collar first. It was made of thick and wide leather, with a broad
strap that buckled in front. There the elaborate metal buckle doubled as an
ornament and point for the leash to attach to.
Unable
to determine if I wanted to move slowly out of sheer reluctance, or fast due to
my increasing lack of time, I fumbled with the collar until managed to place it
on my neck and wrap it around. Still not accustomed to the gloves, I managed to
secure the buckle more by chance than anything else. Placing the leash was
easier, which attached itself with a soft click.
I
leaned forward on my bed, bringing the ankle chain towards my legs. This was
easy to place, the open cuffs like metal talons that closed around my ankles
with a loud snap. For no particular reason I tested the shackles, pulling the
foot long chain taut. Obviously, it was very secure.
Unpleasant
as these items were, it was nothing compared to the aversion I felt for the
pacifier gag. I held it up in front of me, business end forward, and looked at
it. Its appearance could be described as silly, or even cute, but it couldn't
hide the fact that this was a merciless tool of discipline, subjugation and
humiliation. The mere fact I was even contemplating putting it in said
something of the power these women held over me. I observed its shape and size.
The pacifier looked a lot more phallic than strictly necessary to silence
someone. A lot bigger too.
But
time was running out, and I had no other options left. I took a deep breath,
closed my eyes, then opened my mouth. Like it or not, extensive training kicked
in, preventing me from simply slipping it in quickly. Instead, I moved my lips
over the surface of the penetrator, my tongue tickling and probing the
underside. I pushed it in slowly, and not too far before pulling it out
slightly. Then I pushed a bit deeper before repeating the process. After four
or five cycles I had finally reached the base of the pacifier and it was fully
inserted in my mouth.
I
grabbed the dangling straps and wrapped them around my head, fidgeting with
them in my rigid gloves as I tried not to disturb my bonnet. Somehow I got the
strap through the buckle and pulled it tight and secure it. Only when the gag
was firmly in place (and out of my direct field of view) did I dare to open my
eyes.
One
more item remained: the handcuffs. But those would incapacitate me completely,
so I had to inspect my appearance now before putting them on.
I
put my weight on my towering heels, careful not to twist my ankle, and got up.
With the tiniest of mincing steps (the chain allowed for nothing else), I
tittered towards the vanity mirror of a final inspection.
I
should have been scanning the details for minute flaws that I could still
correct. Instead, I was captivated in the sight I saw beyond the mirror. I
didn't see Charles, obviously. But neither did I see the girl who tended to
look back at me these days.
Instead
I saw something staring back at me. Like a very lifelike doll that
wasn't quite me, yet it somehow was. It's hard to explain. The heavy makeup,
the outfit, the bonds, each of these alone were laughable, but taken together
it was grander than the sum of its parts. It was one of those rare sights that
at first you laugh at and try to ignore, but of which you soon realize you
can't stop thinking about.
Stunned
at my own reflection, I remained motionless. The girl in the mirror did not. A
slow but noticeable movement was happening behind the fabric of her panties.
Only then did I feel the pressure of my own panties against my excited clitty.
I
looked down with a combination of baffled dread, confused denial and lustful
ignorance, but my flared skirt blocked my view. I dared not push it aside to
visually confirm what I already felt: the push of my hard clitty against the
smooth and soft satin.
No,
wait, this can't be, I thought. I look ridiculous! I'm not turned on by this. I
shouldn't be turned on by this! This is horrible. It's not fair!
A
sudden metallic voice broke through the storm of denial and confusion that went
through my mind. “Six-fifty-six, Cheryl. Inspection time.”
Yes,
Miss, thank you, Miss, I tried to say, completely disregarding the gag that
reduced it to intelligible mumbles. Hurriedly, I minced over to my bed to grab
the handcuffs, while being acutely aware of the height of my heels. Together
with the chain, they forced my hips into a sway that was probably very pretty,
but had the horrible side effect of rubbing the front of my panties against my
clitty.
I
had turned my back towards the mirror, preventing me from seeing myself
anymore. Still, a treacherous part of my mind projected mental images of the
sight of the sissy in a white ultra-short dress and towering heels scampering
by.
I
grabbed the handcuffs from the bed, and turned around. Avoiding the reflection
in the mirror, I minced to my position in the middle of the room.
My
head still full with conflicting emotions, unwanted feelings and stray
thoughts, I fumbled with the handcuffs until I managed to close one shackle
around my right wrist.
I
put my arms behind my back, and tried to place my left wrist in the other cuff.
In my confused and rushed state, wearing those gloves, not being able to see
what I was doing, that was much easier said than done. Almost by accident did I
close the second cuff around my wrist, which locked shut with a ominously definitive
click.
Dressed,
bound, and to my unending horror, still very excited, I stood in the centre of
my room, waiting for the minotaur to appear.
She
took her sweet time. Five past seven, there was still no sight of her while my
heels were starting to get really uncomfortable. Worse still was my clitty
holding up my panties like a tent pole. With my arms bound, I was unable to
quickly move it into a more comfortable position. I tried wiggling my hips and
thighs to get it to move, but all I got for my efforts was a the soft touch of
satin stroking my clitty, while occasionally catching a glance of the bound
beauty struggling in the mirror, which arguably only made it worse.
I
froze when the door handle turned, and my tutor stepped inside. As best I could
while being bound, I bobbed a curtsy while muttering a proper greeting into my
gag.
“Hello
Cheryl,” she said, rather friendly despite her growling voice. She stood before
me, looking me up and down with a subtle smile. If she noticed the tent pole in
my panties, she ignored it.
To
my relief she hadn't brought her humongous paddle. Instead, she held a wooden
cane, almost a yard in length, but very thin.
After
silently observing me with that unnerving smirk of hers, she suddenly broke the
silence. “Not too shabby, girl. Now let me have a closer look...” she spoke,
stepping right up to me.
“Huff?!”
I suddenly uttered completely startled. What was she doing? I thought.
My
tutor's inspections had always been rather up-close and personal, but this was
something else. I had grown somewhat accustomed with her reaching under my
dress to check my corset, but she ignored the straps and simply stroked my
waist and hips and all along the circumference of the corset. My bra was next,
where she ran her fingers up and down me underneath the shoulder straps and
beneath the clasp at the back.
In
any other circumstance I would have yelped and jumped up at her overly intimate
touch, but bound as I was I could do little to endure it and not give in to the
swoon that was clouding my mind.
As
far as my tutor was concerned nothing was out of the ordinary, without a hint
of emotion continued her movements: fingers caressing my arms shoulders and
neck, then using her palms to stroke my legs from the ankle all the way up to
my groin.
She
finished with probing the rim of my panties with her finger, moving between the
fabric and my skin, never once touching my clitty.
Finally
she stepped back. “There appears to be some spillage, girl,” She said
matter-of-factly. Then she gave me an amused smile. “Seems a little someone
likes being a sissy-baby a bit too much.”
I
looked down, but still couldn't see anything because of my dress. The feeling
of moistness on my clitty told me she was right, though.
Terribly
confused I looked at her. “Yes, Miss. I'm sorry, Miss,” is what my well-trained
and behaved persona wanted to say. “No, you are wrong!” Is what my very
confused and thoroughly humiliated ego wanted to say. “Humpfh, huff...” Is what
I actually said.
“Yes,
I understand. You love being a ultra-feminine girly-girl,” she said with a
grin. “And what's better than that? Why, being a tied up ultra-feminine
girly-girl, of course. No wonder that little clitty got all excited.”
She
took hold of my leash, then gave it a gentle tug, forcing me forward.
“Nevertheless, you have ruined your panties, little girl. That is intolerable.
Someone needs a good spanking.”
Please
no, Miss! I'm sorry! I tried to utter, but the gag silenced my pleas. With a
force that was rather gentle but irresistible nonetheless, she guided me
towards my chair.
“Knees
on the pillow, sissy,” she instructed me. Pulled by the leash, I had little
choice and knelt on the soft chair, looking over its back.
“Lean
forward, Cheryl, show me those panties.
A bit more, sissy. Good girl.”
She
let go of my leash, confident that I couldn't go anywhere. She was right, of
course. “Now just you sit there and think about what you've done, sissy.” I
felt her cane softly stroke my behind. “How you got all excited from wearing a
frilly dress, heels and bondage. Shame on you.”
Her
deep voice had taken on a peculiar quality, strangely beautiful, like that of a
famous tenor. There was no trace of anger as she spoke, sounding more soothing.
Darkly tempting even. “No wonder you are no longer a man. Being a sissy is what
you should be. You deserve to be down here with me. You're happy you are down
here...”
There
was a swish as the cane cut through the air. I heard a snap as it hit me. I
yelped, kicking my legs and wiggled my behind.
“Gone
is that silly male ego...”
Another
strike “Guh!” I mumbled.
“All
those responsibilities, all that pride...”
The
cane swooshed, and I squealed.
“Gone.
Can you feel it? How the weight of the world falls off your shoulders...”
Another
powerful sting hit my behind. It was very different from the flaming hammer
blows of her paddle. More like a... wicked caress. It still hurt, but...
differently. I suddenly thought of Miss Rosenberg, telling me... something...
about pain.
“No
more worries...” my tutor continued as she administered my punishment. “Free
from responsibilities... Free from difficult decisions... Free from choice...
Your dominant takes care of you... She takes care of everything... All you need
to do is obey... Be pretty...”
She
just kept talking as she spanked me. I felt a veil was being pulled over me.
Over my eyes, over my entire body, over my mind. A veil of lightning: painful
but so full of boundless energy.
Her
voice penetrated that veil, droning on in that ethereal tone.
“You
want to be pretty... You want to be feminine... Gone is the filthy male...
Embrace the feminine... Be feminine... Be a sissy... Be yourself...”
I
tried to think, everything seemed muddled. Her voice distracted me, and I
pleaded, shouted, for her to shut up and let me think, but the gag silenced me
and her words just kept pouring in.
“You
want to wear dresses... You love high heels.. You want to be pretty... Be
pretty for your dominant... She deserves you... You are your gift to her... You
are her pet... Your dominant owns you... You want to be owned...”
I
was crying. Not from pain. Not even because I was sad, but because I was
experiencing so many conflicting emotions and stray thoughts I had no other way
to express myself but to cry.
“Hush,
now, baby. It's all right. No need for tears, girl.”
I
found myself sitting on Frau Ochsenhorn's lap, leaning against her shoulder
while she sat on the chair with her arms around me.
“What...
what happened?” I asked, unsure of how I got there. I tried to make sense of
everything, not even realizing my gag had somehow been removed.
“I
just planted a tiny seed, Cheryl. With time and careful cultivation, it will
sprout and bloom into a beautiful flower.”
“I
don't understand, Miss.”
“Of
course you don't, dear. But don't you worry your tiny little mind on that. You
just be a good girl and perform your assignments. Now let me dry those tears of
yours. Can you stand?”
“I
think so, Miss,” I told her. With her support she got me back on my heels.
Though a bit wobbly, I managed.
“All right, let's walk a bit,” she told me as she gently pulled my leash. It took me
considerable concentration, but I followed her lead.
“We
need to fix your makeup, Cheryl. Stand here, don't move.” She picked up a few
items from the vanity table. She powered my cheeks, added blush and reapplied
some eye-shadow and lipstick.
“There,
much better. Take a look, girl.” She turned me towards the vanity mirror where
I got a good look at the bound dolly that somehow was me.
“Now
let's put this on you, so we can join your classmates,” she said as she stood
behind me.
“Miss?”
I asked confused.
She
held out the gag in front of me. “Tiffany made you wear this, remember? Forced
you into this outfit, and now I'm forced to put this in your mouth.”
Anger
flared up from my whirlpool of emotions. Tiffany... that mean little hussy!
I'll show her, even if it's the last thing I'll do!
“Now
open wide, honey...” My tutor said as I watched the girl in the mirror. I saw
how the huge woman behind her put the phallus between the girl's lips. With
implacable force, she slid the penetrator in completely and then expertly
secured the gag at the back of the girl's head.
“Let's
get sissy-baby to class,” Frau Ochsenhorn spoke, her voice back to her familiar
growling baritone as she led me out onto the corridor, my excited clitty once
more pushing against the moist fabric of my panties.
**********************************
“Thank
you Daniëlle. That will be all” Miss D'Ives said during class. “Cheryl? Your
turn. Front and centre, girl.”
I
looked at her, dismayed. She couldn't be serious, I thought.
If
I had hoped my bonds would be removed for class, I had been sorely
disappointed. Frau Ochsenhorn had led me into the classroom, still bound and
gagged, where I was placed behind my desk. Aside from making sure I was
comfortable (relatively speaking, of course), my tutor left me there without
another word. Miss D'Ives didn't bat an
eyelid as I was brought in; she just welcomed me and complimented me on my
dress.
My
classmates had arrived shortly after me. Tiffany was first, wearing the exact
same outfit as I did, bonds and all. I would have gloated at the sight if I
didn't feel so cross with her for forcing this outfit on me.
Daniëlle
and Alice came in simultaneously, looking like oversized toddlers. They hadn't
been bound at all, but judging from the angry glances they shot each other I
doubt they realized their fortune.
When
Suzy was escorted in, I noticed she was wearing the most plain outfit of the
lot, with only a pair of leather wrist cuffs with D-rings that spoiled her
appearance as a young lady. Still, even these had been left unshackled. It was
weird to see how that troublemaker had the most regular appearance of our sorry
group.
After
welcoming us in her class, Miss D'Ives started our lesson without even
acknowledging our predicaments. She didn't say anything about our bonds, let
alone releasing us from them. The thought of spending this day tied up was bad
enough, but now she expected me to perform as well?
“Don't
be shy girl. I'm sure you'll do fine,” she said, sounding rather friendly, but
casually stroking the crop she was holding. “Hurry up now.”
I
got the hint. With some effort I got on my feet and in my towering heels I
minced over to the platform. The jangling ankle chain was long enough to step
onto the platform, but only just. My teacher graciously helped me up by holding
my leash.
Not
letting go, she guided me around the platform twice before placing me right in
front of my classmates.
To
my unending horror, the soft rubbing of my panties had stimulated me again.
Though my flaring dress obscured my own vision, it allowed my classmates to get
a good look of my hard sissy-clitty as it tried to push though the frilly
fabric of my panties.
I
felt dazed, unable to think clearly. Utterly humiliated, I wanted to run and
hide, but my bonds would have prevented that even if I could have ordered my
feet to move. Nevertheless, Miss D'Ives firmly held on to my leash. So I just
stood there, in full view of my classmates, bound, dressed like a sissy-baby,
and seemingly aroused by my own predicament.
“Why,
doesn't she look pretty, girls?” The teacher said. “All dolled up. She is going
to make some mistress very happy, won't she?”
Then
something happened I would never have expected: I blushed.
Well,
not really. I felt terribly ashamed and I was red as a beet already. Yet
despite all of that I began to feel something else too: a shy excitement.
It
was so confusing, so alien. But I despite my utter humiliation, the wrongness
of this insane situation, I felt... pretty. I was the centre of attention. The
wrong kind of attention, for sure, but attention nonetheless. Everyone was awed
by my sissiness. My teacher didn't mind my bondage, or even my hard clitty. She
actually approved. She was proud of me, and that made me feel...
good. And if she was proud, then perhaps Mistress Christina... Anyway, the
other girls were envious, surely.
And
as I stood there, the bonds preventing me from running despite the alarm bells
ringing in my head, a strange thought struck me. For a moment, the briefest of
moments, I realised my bonds hadn't imprisoned me at all, they had simply freed
me from choice. Then I tasted the phallus in my mouth and the moment passed.
As
I struggled with my conflicting thoughts and emotions, my teacher fluffed up my
skirt, making sure my panties were completely exposed. She brushed against my
clitty, which I assumed to be an accident, further exciting my already hard
member.
The
she stepped back, crossed her hands before her, gave me a smile and simply
said: “Teapot.”
I
couldn't help looking at Miss D'Ives in surprise. As part of our homework, we
had been instructed to prepare a little dance to the tunes of a nursery rhyme.
Since I'm American, I had to rehearse 'I'm a little teapot', and clearly it was
now my turn to perform. The movements were straightforward enough, but how on
Earth was I supposed to perform tied up like this?
My
teacher apparently read my thoughts. “Just do your best, Cheryl,” she answered
to my unspoken question. “After all, it is the effort that counts.” Miss D'Ives
bent and stretched her crop as she said that.
She
placed the crop underneath her armpit and started clapping rhythmically,
nodding to my classmates to follow her example. After some hesitation, everyone
fell in. Except for Tiffany, obviously.
She
turned back towards me, then counted off: “Three, two, one... I'm a little
teapot, short and sprout...”
With
my hands tied, the only thing I could think of was to improvise something involving
short dainty steps. Forcing a blissful expression in my eyes and a smile on my
lips, I minced around the platform to the beat of the clapping.
“...This
is my handle, this is my spout...”
Only
my teacher sang the words, as my European classmates were unfamiliar with the
text, but using her voice as a guideline, I tittered across the wooden
platform. I made sure the clicking of my heels was in perfect rhythm with the
clapping, and for once my ultra-short short dress was to my advantage, as it
allowed me to draw attention to my long legs and (hopefully) away from my
clitty.
“...When
I get all steamed up, hear me shout...”
I
moaned girlishly into my gag, while giving my audience a suggestive wink. There was only so much I could do with my
legs, and by now it had been drilled into my skull that a proper sissy always
needs to surprise her dominant with a little variation. Miss D'Ives face showed
approval.
“...Tip
me over and pour me out.”
I
minced back to my original spot, bend over forward as much as I dared in my
towering heels and bonds, giving Daniëlle a good look at my cleavage in the
process, then bent my legs and bobbed something approaching a curtsey.
Ashamed,
humiliated, and to my horror strangely excited, I waited for my teacher to
excuse me. She just continued clapping.
“l'm
a little teapot, yes it's true. Here is
an example of what I can do...” Miss D'Ives suddenly continued.
I
looked at her in utter surprise. There was another verse? I only knew the first
part!
My
teacher interrupted her singing. “A sissy's work is never done, Cheryl,” she
said as she continued clapping. “Just because you are ignorant enough to think
you are done, don't expect your betters to agree. Now continue, silly girl. I'm
a little teapot, yes it's true...”
So
I continued my hobbled dance, making up the moves as I went, trying my best to
make it look sexy and enticing. When our instructor finished the last verse,
she started over without skipping a beat. But this time I was prepared, and I
continued my moves.
After
this second round she stopped clapping, and immediately the room fell silent.
She gave me a long hard look that almost made me shiver.
Then
she smiled. “Well, wasn't that lovely, girls? I think Cheryl deserves some
applause. Let's hear it, girls!” Miss D'Ives started clapping enthusiastically,
and my classmates mimicked her, albeit a lot more reluctantly.
And
strangely, I was thankful for their applause. At highschool I never understood
those kids of the drama club, who went on stage in front of a lot of people to
say and do stupid things made up by a stupid poet who died centuries ago. Now I
understood: you might not like the role you play, but the applause afterwards
is heartening.
“Give
your audience a bow, girl, then you can leave the stage.” My instructor told
me. “No, not to your seat, silly girl. Get over here, next to me. That's it.
Now turn around, and get on your knees. You heard me, sissy! Now!”
Flabbergasted
at this sudden turn of events, I did as I was told. Slowly, as not to trip on my
shakles, I leaned forward and kneeled down.
“Good,”
Miss D'Ives said without a hint of warmth in her voice.
She
patted my head like I was some pet. “Now girls, Cheryl's performance was...
adequate,” she spoke with some resignation, “but I'm sure you can do better.
Let's see how you fare, Tiffany.”
I
saw Tiffany trying to get up from her chair, and failing miserably. That caused
me to smirk behind my gag. Now it's your turn to make a fool of yourself, you
hussy, I thought.
Out
teacher stepped up to my classmate. “Oh, no, no,no, silly girl. Let me untie
you first...”
That
hit me like a sledgehammer. Aghast, I saw how Miss D'Ives took out a key and
unlocked Tiffany's handcuffs, then took out her gag. Tiffany must have been
just as surprised as I was,
“Give
Tiffany a warm round of applause, girls!” Our teacher called out as she
escorted Tiffany onto the podium, holding her hand gently.
That
was not fair! I thought furiously. If I had to perform tied up, so should she!
Out of frustration, I started to pull on my bonds, grunting into my gag. If I
had been untied, I probably would have thrown a tantrum, but in my current
state I could barely get on my feet.
As
Tiffany prepared herself on the podium, our teacher took up position next to
me. She placed her hand on the nape of my neck, not unkindly, but enabling her
to intervene in case I would do something very foolish.
“All
right, Tiffany,” Miss D'Ives told my rival as she pinched my neck softly.
“Please show Cheryl here you are better than her.
If
looks could kill, Tiffany would have been killed instantly. When she caught my
eyes, she just gave a slight smirk, which infuriated me even further. I felt my
instructor's grip tighten.
Then
Miss D'Ives began to sing, and Tiffany started to dance. If I had a clearer
head, I would have realized her performance was laughable and silly. She was a
man dressed as a girl dancing to the tunes of a nursery rhyme, after all. But I
was green with envy: she had been untied. She didn't have to
content with a wayward clitty. And worst of all: that talentless hussy had
stolen my spotlight!
I
nursed my grievances as Tiffany performed, and twice did Miss D'Ives shush me
when I groaned too loud, giving me a soft cuff around the ears as a further
warning. Only when Tiffany had returned to her seat did she allow me to get up
and escort me to my chair.
Finally
the lesson ended and Miss D'Ives was replaced by another teacher.
Not
that it did me any good. I wasn't untied until lunchtime.
*******************
That
evening I was alone in the common room, still seething with anger. After all
the indignities I suffered in the morning I tried to regain my composure by
being the perfect little sissy; smiling shyly, mincing prettily in my extreme
heels and looking cute in my atrocious dress. I redoubled my attention to my
ridiculous classes, hoping to score some merits. But it was to no avail. My
tutors were very critical of my performance. Twice I was called over in front
of the class, forced to bend over the teacher's desk while she readied her tool
of the day.
But
worst of all, they showered that hussy Tiffany with praise. Her performance was
mediocre at best, but somehow she could do no wrong. It was infuriating!
I
was sulking as I paced around the room. Well, not really. A proper sissy
doesn't pace or sulk. The camera in the corner was a clear reminder. So I just
smiled blissfully as my heels clicked with each girlish step, mincing towards
nowhere in particular.
But
my mind was racing. I needed merits. I needed to get back at Tiffany. I needed
to be better than her. Better than all of them. Mistress Christina would accept
no less, so neither could I.
A
voice interrupted my musings: “Cheryl? Do you have a moment?”
I
stopped in my tracks and turned towards its source, making my dress rustle.
“...Suzy? What do you want?” I smiling, but couldn't hide my annoyance.
She
was standing in the doorway towards our rooms, looking little like the
rebellious troublemaker she was before. Her posture was properly submissive,
standing there in her enviously low heels, hands folded before her and eyes
lowered to the ground.
Even
our teachers noted her improvement, earning her a merit today.
“I'm
having trouble with my homework today, and Miss Keller will be very cross with
me if I don't get it right.” She looked at me with pleading eyes. ”I know you
are very good at it. Would you help me, please?”
Frau
Keller had given us separate exercises for our homework. My classmates were to
apply makeup using advanced techniques. I was to simply put lipstick on.
Another insult.
“Sure,
Suzy. I'd be happy to,” I said with more enthusiasm than I felt. Still, it was
nice that at least someone acknowledged my skills.
I
followed her to her room, making sure my movements were more exaggerated than
hers, just in case we'd meet a tutor in the corridor.
She
let me in, then closed the door behind me.
“Whatever
you are thinking of doing... Don't!” She suddenly said.
I
blinked in confusion. “Wh... What...?” I stammered.
Suzy
was looking straight into my eyes. Not a trace of submission was left in hers,
replaced with defiance and determination. “You need to calm down,” she said
intensely. “They are messing with you. Don't play their game.”
“What
are you talking about?” I asked confused.
She
glanced at the green button next to her bed. “Wait, not another word...” She
walked over to the small sink we all had in our rooms, then turned on the
faucet, letting it run. The tap hissed as water flowed out of it, splashing
into the sink.
“Now
she cannot hear us. I hope...” She said softly, but the concern in her voice
was unmistakable.
“Who?”
I asked, utterly baffled.
“Big
Sister,” Suzy replied conspiratorially. “I don't want her listening in on us.”
I
gave her a puzzled look. “You need to push the button for her to hear us,” I
said, nodding towards the speaker.
She
looked at me, with fire in her eyes. “Are you sure about that? Perhaps there
are other microphones. Perhaps even other cameras. I bet they are trying to
eavesdrop on us right now.”
“Aren't
you being a bit paranoid?” I asked helpfully.
Suzy
gave an annoyed sigh. “Listen... They've got you all worked up. Don't let them.
You need to calm down.”
“Er...Sure.
So, do you need my help with your homework or not?”
She
grabbed my shoulders firmly as she looked me in the eyes. “I'm serious, Cheryl!
They are trying to make you mad, and they are succeeding!” She said
frantically.
I
would have stepped back if she wasn't holding me. “They? You mean our teachers?
Why would they do that?” I asked perplexed.
“Don't
you see? They are trying to confuse us, keep us on edge so we cannot think
straight,” she rambled.
“Okay...”
I said non-committal. Someone wasn't thinking straight, all right, but
it was probably not a good idea to mention that.
“And
you need to stop performing your assignments,” she added.
“My
assignments? Why? How else am I supposed to score merits?” I asked indignant.
I
could almost hear her grind her teeth. “Mein Gott, are you really that
stup...” She interrupted herself, then took a deep breath.
She
let go of my shoulders, but her eyes remained fixed on mine. “Every time one of
us finishes an assignment, someone else will pay for it. It seeds strife and
paranoia.” She said with conviction.
“But
why?” I asked unconvinced.
She
lowered her voice. “When recruits join the army, they go to bootcamp, right?
There they are trained by some instructor from hell who will make their life
miserable. So they bond together into an unbreakable team, united in their
hatred for their instructor.”
She
raised her hands. “Here it's the other way around. Sure, our instructors are
from hell too, but they try to turn us against one another. By
separating us from the few people that might be emphatic with our plight, they
isolate us. So we have no-where to turn to but the very Dommes that torment
us.”
A
dark smile appeared on her face. “It is brilliant, in a twisted sort of way.”
“Suzy...
aren't you exaggerating a bit?” I asked with a mixture of concern and
annoyance.
“That's
probably why we are so deep underground,” she added, ignoring me. “So they can
mess with us better. Ever noticed the only clocks around are those displays?
They probably control them, just like they control those phoney windows. How
can we be sure it really is eight o'clock, and not midnight above ground?
“Now
you are just being silly!” I snapped
“Am
I?” She shot back. “I always had a very regular sleep cycle, even when I got
suckered into all this weirdness. Now I'm tired all the time, just like you.
No, don't deny it! You try to cover it up with makeup, but I can see it in your
eyes. They keep us tired so we cannot think clearly. See through their games.”
“But
that doesn't make sense,” I countered, “We have free time. We are allowed to
withdraw to our room... they simply cannot control everything we do. They are
not omniscient!”
“No,
but probably something close to it,” she said, lowering her voice to a whisper.
“They are keeping tabs on us, I'm sure. All this effort to decorate this
bunker, everything state-of-the-art, yet they install a few cameras the size of
shoe-boxes? Probably to draw attention away from hidden cameras. And when
things get out of hand, a tutor just 'happens' to pass by for something
completely unrelated.”
I
didn't know what to say.
“They
play us like puppets, dancing to their tune,” Suzy added. “The assignments,
betraying one another, making us complicit in each other's punishments, its one
big effort to wear us down mentally.”
She
straightened her back. “Well, not me. They can try, but I'll beat them,” she
didn't raise her voice, but I could hear it oozed with defiance.
She
looked at me intently. “However, I need your help. And not just you. You, me,
Tiffany, Alice and Daniëlle. We need to stick together. Support one another. We
keep our heads down, do as we are told, but nothing more. That way we may find
a way out of here.”
My
eyes widened. “You mean... escape?!” I whispered louder than intended.
“Shhhhh!
Keep your voice down!” She snapped. “Well, maybe. I've been keeping my eyes
open, and it looks like security isn't quite as tight as the Headmistress wants
us to believe. But even if I do
not find a way out, they cannot keep us here forever. So if we just stick
together, play our own game, we may yet be able to hold on to our masculinity
till they have to let us
out. "
Suzy's
eyes looked into mine. They had lost their hard defiant edge. It was almost as
if they were pleading we me. A moment of silence passed between us.
“What
do you want me to do?” I finally asked.
A
relieved smile appeared on her face. “Right now, you are just playing into
their hands. So calm down. Forget Tiffany. Do as you are told but nothing more.
Do not arouse suspicion. That is all. We'll talk later.”
She
walked over to the sink and closed the tab. “Thank you for showing me that
technique, Cheryl,” she said. “though I doubt I'll ever be able to use eyeliner
as well as you can.”
This
confused me for a moment, causing Suzy make a gesture: say something, you dolt.
“Er...
You are very welcome, Suzy,” I finally said. “But I'm sure you'll be an expert
soon enough. Goodbye, now.”
I
left her room and walked down the corridor. She had given me a lot to
process.
I
thought about what Suzy had said. About the assignments. About Tiffany. About
escaping. Arguments for and against crossed my mind, as my heels found their
way into the common room.
I
was standing in the centre of the room when I came to a decision. I turned on
my heels, then bobbed a curtsey for the camera pointed at me.
“What
is it, Cheryl?” Big Sister asked with her electronic buzz.
“Miss,
I would like to report that Suzy is being rebellious,” I told her with my sweet
and most girlish voice. “She only acts like she is docile, but in truth she has
improper thoughts: she is planning to escape. She even wanted me to help her.”
“That
is very serious, Cheryl. Tell me everything,” Big Sister demanded.
So
I did. As much as possible, anyway. I had difficulty remembering what Suzy had
told me. She had been frantic, but hardly made any sense. She had told me
something about not being angry with Tiffany because our teachers went to
bootcamp to turn us against each other and kept the window lights on at night
and that there were hidden cameras that play us like puppets. Golly, just
thinking about it made me tired.
At
any rate, Big Sister got the gist of it. “Thank you for your honesty, Cheryl.
This earns you two merits. Well done girl. Why don't you go back to your room
and prepare for the night?”
“Yes,
miss. Thank you, miss,” I said as I bobbed a pretty curtsey. I turned on my
heels and minced to my bedroom. Two merits, I thought. Eat your heart out,
Tiffany!
*********************
I
was preparing for bed when I heard a ruckus on the corridor. I tried to open my
door to see outside, but it was locked. Instead I listened to what was happening.
The solid door blocked out most sounds, but I could hear various people down
the hallway. There seemed to be a struggle going on. I heard some muffled
screams and grunts, and the dangling of chains.
I
kept listening as the sounds abated until it was silent again. I didn't know
what had just happened, but something about it seemed horribly relevant.
Finally, I turned away and got back to more pressing matters. Finally could
take of this horrible dress, I thought.
The
following day, something was different. At first I did not realize what, until
Alice spoke up during breakfast. “Where is Suzy?”
This
caused a murmur in the dining hall, even though I said nothing. A sudden pang
of guilt shot through me, though I did not understand why. Finally our tutors
called for silence, and that was that.
When
we arrived at class for our first lesson, we saw the Headmistress was waiting
for us. She bade us welcome and even gave me a smile.
“Good
morning, girls. Before we start off with your next lesson, I have an important
announcement to make. Sadly, Suzy will not be joining us this day, nor any
other. She is no longer part of this class.”
We
all gasped in unison.
“Indeed,”
the Headmistress said ruefully. “I have high hopes for that girl, but I could
no longer overlook her troublesome behaviour and the bad example she was
setting for her poor classmates. To protect you she had to be removed.”
Good
riddance with that troublemaker, I wanted to think. But in truth, I felt guilt
and regret.
“Is
she... expelled, Headmistress?” I asked, my voice betraying both hope and
dread.
The
baroness smiled warmly. “Most certainly not, my dear. The Von Wytenbach's Etikette-Schule für
junge Damen aller Geschlechter does not abandon its pupils, no matter how
troublesome. We have merely transferred her to the nursery.”
“The
nursery, Headmistress?” Daniëlle asked in puzzlement.
“Yes,
it is where the most difficult students are sent for a specialised and very
intensive... schooling.” An enigmatic smile appeared of her face as she said
that. “When she is done, she will be cycled back into the next novice class.
Next time you'll meet her, she'll be a perfect example of submissive
femininity, I promise.”
That
was a relief, I thought. Suzy would be a good sissy after all. And all's well
that ends well, right?
Though
Suzy probably did not agree, I suddenly heard myself think.